Unless the dreamer is the real you;

2012-02-02T21:47:00.004+08:00

Because I can't sound like too much of a freak on my twitter (even though I really am),

Wongfu is on the same side of the world as us..... and that makes me so excited!!!!

Even if they are in Malaysia now haha it's like so close yet so far.

26 days till I get to meet them AHHH I AM SO EXCITED hehehehe alr thinking of what to wear, what to bring, what to say... need to get a polaroid with them no joke.

Hahaha ok I am a freak and I am so tired of ionic equilibria but I shall return to it now.

Have I reverted to a Sec4 fangirl? ... Yes I think I'm getting there haha. I'm 18 already guyz.

Don't have the time to do an elaborate post on turning 18 but it was the most fantastic birthday ever thanks to my family and LOUDGen and DebSabSimone and esp Tiara Joy Foo who is amazingggg and organised the whole big surprise and the best birthday video that almost made me cry haha.

Bye guyz :)

2012-01-04T17:49:00.020+08:00

Happy 2012! Hehe ok I know 2011 ended a couple days back but here comes the thanksgiving/reflecting on 2011 post :)

SCHOOL

Going to JC was so much harder than I thought it was going to be. Having to adapt to a new environment, with a new class and new CCA and new way of school. Work was killer (and it only gets worse this year) but I'm glad that amidst all of it - all of my whining and ranting - God gave me SO MUCH. He was so real to me, esp in such a... godless environment (if you can call it that). Realised how sheltered I had been, with everyone around me always being guai. So keeping a good testimony, keeping my promise to Him - the challenge became so real. But thank You God for seeing me through :)

As much as 7B isn't an ideal class (trying to be as politically correct as I can lol), I'm really thankful I got to meet people like Syah Vera and Marz :) And get to hang out with Rach and Nicole and Sherly!

And of course, thank God for a great pdubz group!!! It was siao but we got through 1 year of PW together :) WOOTS no more pw forever~

STREET

Truly, I don't know how I would've survived every dreary day of JC without Street. I can't imagine being in another CCA and I'm honestly so thankful for such a fun and crazy and bonded batch :) Don't think I'm anywhere near where I want to be as a dancer, but Street helps me want to get better and grow together with the rest of them. And we are the best camwhores out there!!! Lovelovelove Street '12 :)

From our CCA showcase... LOL we have grown so much!!

One of our MANY camwhore sessions.... (It was hard to pick just one)
And for lovely friends like Grace and Ariel who I get to hang with every week :)

The streeters really make me laugh all the time and y'all are some of the best friends I've made in this school! I am so excited for production next year AW YEAH~

Debo Sab Simone

Even though we aren't in the same class anymore and RJ is just too big, I'm so glad that we still could have our sleepovers, still could celebrate birthdays together, and still could be involved in each other's lives :) I am so thankful that you guys love me even when I'm annoying/dumb. Ahhh biglove!

LOUD Gen

So much more than just a youth ministry, LOUD Gen is really like my 2nd family. It's where I've found so many amazing friends and those I believe that I will keep for life :) And srsly this year has been so insanely siao for LOUD Gen, with PSA leaving and Joanne getting pregnant and so many things changing, but we continue to serve the same faithful God who brought us through 2011!

Hannah, Rachel - Idek what to say anymore because I think I said it all in my Christmas cards but thank you for putting up with my rubbish and keeping me grounded because both of you are obviously more sensible :) Wouldn't wanna have shopped for $250 worth of Christmas decor with anyone else~~~ Hahaha.

Joanne, Tiara - Thank you for being my accountability partners/mentor (why no more emails!!) and for all the shiok lepak sessions and sleepovers at the House of Chow :) Twister fries party soon woots~

Jew - As much as I wanna punch you all the time, you really are like the lil brother I never had. So thanks :)

Tiara - thanks for being someone that I can HCKS with about everything and marvel about God all day with and not get bored :) You were a bam siao camp commandant btw ;)

Idk how to organise the rest already so... here.

First non-family members to carry Jemma what up!! :)

MISSION TRIP

So so so thankful for the opportunity to get to go to Kiangan, Ifugao in Philippines this year! Really opened my eyes to see so much, to see how they live and how they continue serving God even if church means a 1 hour walk through the mountainous areas.

I will always remember the various cellgroup sessions we had in different houses, using like 3 different languages, and smth that Uncle Jimmy said (which I journaled down): "We have to deliver vegetables all the way to the city just to pay for education, but the outcome is very great because the children learn to read the Bible."

Getting to play with the kids like Rendel and Dapdap and Jasmine and OJ was ahhhhh too cute too cute! And getting to work with Ate Chat and Ate Elsie and Ate Shil and Marj was so great, even if it was scary at the start :) Plus the super epic Rice Feast team that I got to spend 10 days with! So glad for the friends made :)

FAMILY

Hehe really happy that Dajie got to come back twice this year and we got to spend so much sisterly and family time together! Thank God for helping Erjie and Jeanjiejie to graduate this year, effectively making me the only student left in the family! Haha.

So so so thankful for such an amazing family and even though we fight and scream and yell, we also make each other laugh SO HARD so often and I couldn't ask for a better fam to be blessed with :)

EXTENDED FAMILY

This year was rly not a good year for the relatives - with Ahma passing away, a divorce and 2 breakups, but I'm thankful that we stick by each other :)

Ahma I will never forget you and I will never stop missing you or loving you till I see you again in heaven, but thank you for being here for 17 years of my life and for looking down on me from heaven now :) It's weird typing this in english but I guess Ahma can understand all kinds of things up there with Jesus :)

It was the first time I'd ever been involved in a wake but it was a really good experience, of just spending 4 days with no one else but family and friends and doing nothing else but singing His praises (in hokkien) and remembering what an amazing woman and testimony Ahma was :) Giving my first ever eulogy (I guess it kinda was) was so nervewrecking and I rmb biting my lip so hard to stop myself from crying. But looking back on those 4 days (and the couple before she passed away), it was a really good time of healing and bringing our family closer together.

I have the funniest and cutest cousins ever and I lovelove every single dance party and family gathering where we play with the babies and play Just Dance and pictionary and Don't Forget The Lyrics :)

Yay ok that's all! If I didn't mention you by name, it's probably just because I dont have a photo with you from last year.

Honestly 2011 was a... kinda insane year, and 2012 promises to be 100x more insane, with A levels and all. But I know that God is way bigger, and way more kee siao than whatever 2012 can throw at me and I will not be afraid! Though I don't know what to expect, I know the God who holds my hand through it all and I know for sure that He will never let go :)

2011-12-27T01:43:00.001+08:00

There was that one day, a couple days before Christmas, where I was walking home in a light drizzle, not in a rush to go anywhere or do anything. I was listening to Tower by Merchant Band and thinking abt Ahma, for some reason.

I was approaching the house, and I saw all the red baubles on our huge real tree, the flashing lights on our smaller one on the porch and more lights that adorned the windows. And for a couple minutes, instead of going in, I just stood at the park and stared at the house.

It was so familiar, so comforting - that feeling you get only at home. Then I realised it was different because it was unfamiliar... our first Christmas without Ahma.

But I guess its okay because the feeling that she must've gotten when she returned Home, finally to be with the Father, to be with Ahgong again - that must've been a mix of familiarity, comfort and unfamiliarity too.

I'm just so glad that Christ came for us on Christmas that we can have this assurance :) Just catching a glimpse of His affections for us this Christmas is really.. wow :)

I will be glad and rejoice in God,
For he's a refuge for the poor.
And he maintains my lot,
My confidence assured.
I will sing praise to his name most high,
For he has heard the humble cry.
And he lifts up head,
My confidence assured.

Jesus, Jesus
Your name is like a tower I run in,
I run into it again,
And again I feel your strength within.
Your love is like a banner over me.
Over me I hear you sing
And your song will set the captive free.

Hope you guys had a blessed Christmas too :)

2011-12-14T19:44:00.006+08:00

Just extracted my final 2 wisdom teeth! And I've actually been wanting to blog for a really long time but things have been busybusybusyyy. So since I'm officially unfit for work now (6 days MC haha not like it makes a diff), I just wanna take some time and write down my thoughts abt Camp LOL properly so I can rmb how amazing God is :)

It's probably gonna be long because srsly so many things were in the little details and I just wanna make sure I rmb all of it hehe.

Ok so because I got stuck doing games, the 2 weeks leading up to PCC was suuuuper busy doing up games proposal, overhauling alot of the games, settling logistics and all. Thank God for people like Tiara Jared and Bella who helped so much :) It started to get abit stressful because I was afraid that the games wouldnt be fun or they wouldnt work and we'd let down 90+ people, which is not cool.

On the morning of PCC, after 2 weeks of pure saikang, I was praying in the shower. Like praying that games would work out when we tried it and then it suddenly dawned on me. Why was I worrying about games so much? Would I really want people to leave Camp LOL at the end of it saying "Wah the games were so fun"? Would that be enough?

And then suddenly I started singing I Will Exalt in my head... The verse where is goes "Your presence is all I need, it's all I want and all I seek and without it, without it there's no meaning" and I felt it ring so true! Who cared if the games were fun or not... If God's presence wasn't going to be at camp then there would be no meaning in all that we'd been doing.

At PCC games needed alot of work but it all worked out fine in the end, thankful to have people like Joel and Tianyi and Joash to help us :) But what I really rmbed about PCC was the first day, at 5pm when Tiara and I went back to church aft showering in Ryan's house and we started talking in our room.

I was sharing with her what God placed upon my heart, about how I would scrap all the games if that's what it took to have an encounter with God. And what started off as just another conversation turned into both of us praying, and aft that I dont even have words to describe it. We were praying and singing and just going like keesiao in the room and I really believe God's presence was there. Jess joined us and then we continued just singing and praising and Idek what else we were doing but it's like I couldn't keep still and I couldn't stop smiling and crying and it was so whoa that I didnt even notice abt 2 hours fly by.

The next day was Saturday and Jess and I were set to lead PPP. Practice went really well and we were just getting so excited to have PPP for camp, even in prayer meeting it was like God was stirring up smth inside!

But for some reason, PPP was... difficult. It felt like we were pushing and pushing and trying and trying but we hit a wall. People didn't seem to really want to worship or pray (of course there were a couple but) and it felt draggy. It was rly tough being up there... and I kept asking God "WHAT IS GOING ON??" sigh Idk.

Jess ended it early and I felt so discouraged. I was so afraid that this was what camp was gonna be like and because I was rostered to lead worship on the first night, I told God "If Your presence isn't gonna be there and people don't wanna worship, then I dont wanna be up there either" Went to a room and cried for like 30 sec before getting myself back together and doing everything else.

There was such a heaviness and a kinda... dread in my heart. And it was so dumb because just a couple hours before we were like AW YEAH LETS GO and then when things didn't go as we wanted, I started questioning God. But nvm this is not how it ends so thank God He indeed doesn't disappoint and He always has 2nd chances for us even when we doubt Him a lil :)

Day before camp starts and I'm reading The Fear Of The Lord, which Jess just lent me. Just locked myself in the room and read and prayed and told God all I was feeling and how I was scared. But God gave me a peace in my heart and I started getting excited for camp again because He reminded me that His glory would come, not just for our sakes, not just so people would be less sian, but for His purpose. And as long as I was ready for God's presence and His power, I didnt have to worry what the rest of the ministry or friends may feel because He was gonna come :)

11pm before camp and I get a message from Rachel that Felly told her she wasn't coming for the camp. My heart hurt because I felt deep in my spirit that this camp would be a turning point for her and again my mind went "WHY GOD???" Sigh, I really wonder how God can love a people as untrusting as us. I cried even as I shared with my parents during family devo and then went to call her. After failing to convince her, I just fell on my knees in my room and cried and cried because I had no idea what God was trying to do.

Called Tiara at like 12plus (and this was the night before camp) and we just both cried and talked and I really thank God for her because she told me about her experience during synchro prayer and we prayed with each other on the phone, through alot of tears saying "God we don't know what's going on, but we know You are in control and You know everything we don't so help us to trust in Your will."

Ok hope you are still here. This is gonna be long, as I warned earlier. But finally reaching the part abt actual Camp LOL! Hehe.

Day 1!

Take the lorry with Joash Heidi Jared and Shaun to go set up, get lost along the way but eventually make it :) Station games start and I'm srsly just LOLing at my station watching people try to do Nyan Cat Bollywood hahaha!

Halfway through got a message from Felly saying that her grandma wanted to come for camp and stay and I was like YES!!! Hehe :)

Worship that first night.... honestly didn't go as I'd hoped. Sigh. Then Jon and I spent half the message planning response only to have Jose Philips not end with a response which we were used to. The message was honestly pretty cheem and I think at that time all of us were just like, whuttt..... Personally I started dreading like "omgsh what if the rest of camp is gonna be like that AHH". It definitely wasn't expected, but ahh srsly I can't say how beyond circumstances God is :)

Day 2!

Matthew led worship for the first time and I co-led with him.... He did well for his first time and honestly I was rly encouraged that he didn't care about how it sounded (even when I got bothered by it) and his eagerness kinda made me question why I was getting so caught up with the technicalities and letting it affect me :/

It was v interesting because Pastor Jose pushed back his initial 2nd message to the 3rd session and strangely enough aft his impromptu 2nd session, I shared with the girls during teamtime exactly what he ended up sharing at the 3rd session! It was so coincidental that I'm convinced it wasn't a coincidence at all, but completely God :)

Had tournament games which turned out pretty fun I think? :P Hehe I had alot of fun stationmastering anw! With my 48 unglam photos haha. Aft that we had lepak time, and Jess Tiara Bernadine and I spent it in our room worshipping and praying :) It was rly good because I think we started getting abit down on the circumstances (worship, messages all that) and we just needed to refocus on God and exalting Him.

Messages started getting better and better imo, and in the night Pastor Adrian came and gave an altar call. It's interesting to think that just a couple of years ago I was the one up there crying but by His grace now I get to be up there standing with others and praying with them :) I honestly dont even rmb what the altar call was, I only rmb "Father to the fatherless" and when I went up to pray for Felly, I was crying way more and way before she even shed a tear haha :P

Seeing so many people respond, and some of the unlikeliest people at that, just crying at the altar, even with the cheem messages that were beyond the intellectual levels of many. It was really just WHOA. Can't give credit to anyone but God :)

After that we were to have night games, and just as I was running out to go get prepared, I saw Linx's friend Sinead sitting outside alone. So I asked her if she needed anything and she said no. Then I asked her if she needed to talk and she said yes, so I sat down with her and asked her what was wrong. Anw we ended up having quite a talk about her faith and how she was struggling, and I dont know how much my words or prayer helped but I'm just glad I got to sit down with her and let her have someone to talk to.

(By the way, I am really thankful to the words Joel said to me 2 years back in some card or another, where he said to always focus on the people and not the task. It's advice that has lasted me well!)

So aft that rushed off to be a hyena for night games, facepaint and all hahaha no thanks to cute lil Jacelyn Sim!!! :P Felt rly bad because mine was a dud station but like 6 grps came to mine first and I sent them to Joel and he/Joash/Joshua tekaned the group like SIAO only for them to come back like 1 hr later and realise I didnt have anything to give them. Got scolded by so many groups! :(

But srsly was just dying laughing when I saw jared hide in the drain OMGSH HAHAHA dedication and commitment man!!!

Day 3!

I honestly don't rmb which message was which but I remember them getting progressively better and surprisingly rly learning alot at the Q&A sessions! Particularly liked the one where he talked abt worship leaders to be careful not to lead the ministry into sacrilege and like Tianyi said, I think some of the things he said were quite harsh and not comfortable to listen to but v necessary for the youths to hear. So even aft all our skepticism abt Jose Philips at first, I'm honestly rly glad he came to speak :)

Again, the same thing happened when the verse I shared at QT with the girls was the exact same passage that he shared at the sermon right after which was rly WHOA. Hahaha God is too cool.

3rd day was meant to be boat-building challenge and massive waterbomb fight! But after the boat-building, we got news that it was lightning alert. Which was maaaaajor bummer because they'd finished tying up 900+ water bombs only to be told they couldnt go outside and play. So we impromptu-ed, thanks to Tianyi, and had skits instead! Which turned out RLY FUNNY hahahaha. After waiting out the lightning alert, it started raining really heavily so that put a confirmed end to our lack of waterbomb game :(

But how it unfolded was so interesting. Like Jess told me, I'm actl glad we didnt get to play it in the aftn because then everyone wouldve been rly tired. They got rest and lepak time instead, which helped them focus on the message and response times better in the night service, and we got NIGHT WATERBOMB FIGHT for the first time instead! Which was shiokkkkkkkkk :)

Last day worship was spent co-leading with Ryan, and even with his mega-high set, it was still whoa. Standing there singing "More Beautiful" brought me back to the first time we sang it at Ignite, where I just re-realised how beautiful the name of Jesus is and it was like I was standing in awe all over again.

And as we moved into How He Loves, it was like BAM the first line hit me in the face. "He is jealous for me". I dont have words to describe how I felt but it was just... how can you even imagine a God so holy, so amazing, being jealous for a filthy sinner like me? I was so overwhelmed by the thought.

I was thinking, even as we sang the 5 words over and over "Oh how He loves us" that yknow, you dont really need complicated cheem songs to sing out to God, sometimes all you need is a simple realisation that hey, God loves you. You dont have to be intellectual or elite to understand this, and that's what really hit me. Looking out at the congregation which was 1/3 friends/pre-believers from all different backgrounds, He just reminded me that He loves us no matter where we come from, and doesn't need us to be a specific type of person before He loves us.

At some parts I couldn't even sing because I couldn't vocalise anything, I just stood there for awhile and in my head went "Wow God, how can it be". Dont think that makes me a great co-WL hehe but rly just so thankful for His presence there :)

After that we had an altar call for salvations and rededications and whooshhhh Idek if words can describe it. It was a flurry of everything, but I believe it was more than emotions. I dont even remember much of it but really, God is so amazing I dont even have words for it anymore. Even when a majority of our ministry didn't get the messages, God still managed to stir and work in the lives of these youths and touch their hearts.

After the final sermon on Psalm 27, we had another response and honestly I don't remember what it was about anymore, I just rmb feeling so privileged to see God moving and getting to pray for people (even if they didnt rmb it heh). And it was a stirring like I can't even explain when Jess came and prayed for me to really just enjoy God's presence. Srsly all I could think was "KEE SIAO!!" because I couldnt stop smiling I couldnt stop laughing and I must've really looked kee siao and said some kee siao stuff when praying for people.

I actually used the words kee siao when praying for Lifan and Tzejun LOL and it was kinda mad because I rmb the things I prayed for them and for Ben and I am completely certain that if it was purely me, I would definitely NOT have the guts to say what I said.

And at the end when we were all just worshipping together and praying for each other and praying as a ministry it was like (and not to be irreverent or anything but) GOD YOU ARE SIAO!!!!!! Because my vocab had just failed me and all I can remember is the 2 words Tiara got before camp, which is KEE SIAO and the 2 words that I got, which is HECK CARE. And just thinking about the camp, thinking about how it unfolded, I couldn't control my laughter cos I felt God said to me "Remember when you asked for the kee siao? Here it is :)" and it was SO WAY BEYOND my expectations.

Ahhhh! Just thinking abt it and talking to Tiara about it a couple days ago really just made me go a little high! It's like, from the start the camp seemed to be doomed. It got off to such a bad start, so many things seemed to be going wrong, we didn't have a pastor, we weren't supposed to have Joanne, we weren't supposed to have Uncle Chor Phang, the speaker was cheem/boring-ish, weather didn't hold out, people were so different from what we'd ever experienced. But amidst all these circumstances, somehow, God worked it.

And honestly all I can say is "Wow, God." He didn't need to, He didn't need to prove Himself or outdo what He'd done before - He's the king of the universe! He has so many other more important things on His mind than Camp LOL right??? But He still did it. He came, moved powerfully, brought people of all different backgrounds to see His glory, and exceeded all my expectations.

I just really hope that we'll be able to keep these new friends that we've gained, stand by each other as a ministry no matter what comes, and truly LOL - Love Out Loud!!!

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL AND REMEMBER TO BRING YOURSELVES TOO~

(Realised I repeated myself like siao in this very ineloquent post but I DONT CARE hehehehe)

2011-09-17T11:36:00.003+08:00

2 Corinthians 4

v1:
Therefore, since through God's mercy we have this ministry, we do not lose heart.

v8:
We are hardpressed on every side but not crushed; perplexed but not in despair; persecuted but not abandoned; struck down but not destroyed.

v 16 - 18:
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

This broke me down yesterday, face down next to my Bible, just sobbing nonstop for a good half an hour.

I need Jesus every single day of my life because He is the only hope that can restore when I'm broken inside.

Doing well, getting As, competing to be better than people that I can never outsmart or outscore is not what I'm here for. I dont know how to do any of these.

All I know is that I will take heart because this is all temporary; we are all temporary. But He is eternal.

I dont have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way He loves us, oh how He loves us~

2011-09-11T15:41:00.002+08:00

Need some time to refocus my thoughts while studying history cos right now I feel like I'm not going anywhere and I CANT CONCENTRATE cos I dont know what to do :(

If there was 1 day where things went beyond my expectations, I think yesterday was it. Honestly the whole day went so well that I am certain it was not by my efforts AT ALL.

Pre-prayer meeting was amazing. It's like I really felt God break my heart for the things that breaks His and I caught a glimpse of how He feels. The feeling is indescribable. It's like a grief that makes you just cry out for mercy, mercy for all the people who are far away and hardened.

I was really just on my knees and the emotion was so.... genuine. Sometimes yknow, you do things because other people are doing it or other people are looking. But yst with just Jess Jon Ryan and Kathleen, it was like, I didn't have to care? And I honestly didn't intend to cry, it was just so overwhelming. And God's presence in that place... Right beside me as I knelt down. I can't even begin to describe it.

Led worship and for the first time I think I really had no fear. Partly because it was an easy-ish set I guess? But mainly in the confidence that God was gonna be there. And that God was solely the one who inspired the set and so I didn't worry at all. It was kinda really cool.

From the start to the end I genuinely believe He was there. Seriously when we were singing Turn your eyes upon Jesus and Awakening, it was really like I didn't want to move from that place. I didn't want to stop singing those songs. I just wanted to stay there forever in His presence and just experience Him all over again.

The set went well musically I guess, but that wasn't what I am happy about. It was when I heard Felly and YQ's voices from behind their guitars, just freely worshipping. Whoaaaa. We ended up not even doing the last song because we didn't need to.

And sometimes I'm tempted to take the credit for a set well done but NO. Because I know if God wasn't there, if He didn't work, it wouldve been a flop. God is the only reason we experienced what we did because He met us there. And I believe He ministered. Even as I was singing those songs, I felt Him ministering to my heart.

The sharing by Jess was good :) And it was Ryan and my first time taking over response time but it went well because we just flowed :)

CG started off awkward but proceeded with such a heartfelt sharing. Just unloading to each other all our stresses and burdens and troubles was so nice. And it ended up a cryfest because I started crying when Felly and Gabriel were crying and we were such a big mess but I felt like we finally could connect with each other yknow? Beyond the suaning and jokes and lessons, it's like we could tell each other how we felt and keep each other in prayer :) So so so thankful for that.

Went for MAF at Hwachong later with Hannah Rachel Jaslyn and Kathleen and that was fun :) We were Hwachongians for a night, singing their songs cheering their cheers and dancing their dances hahaha.

Ok I shall end here I just wanted to note it down so I can look back on this wonderful day. And honestly I do believe it's time for an awakening. It may not happen in 1 week, or 2, but it's gonna happen. It's time to be awoken from our slumber and remember what's important!

"Rise, let us go! ... The hour is near."

2011-08-31T23:32:00.002+08:00

In our hearts Lord
In this nation
Awakening

Holy Spirit
We desire
Awakening

For You and You alone
Awake my soul
Awake my soul and sing

For the world You love
Your will be done
Let Your will be done in me

In Your presence
In Your power
Awakening

For this moment
For this hour
Awakening

Like the rising sun that shines
From the darkness comes a light
I hear Your voice say
This is my awakening

Like the rising sun that shines
Awake my soul
Awake my soul to sing

From the darkness comes a light
Awake my soul
Awake my soul to sing

Only You can raise a life
Awake my soul
Awake my soul to sing

There is something about this song that I cannot describe.

The first time I listened through the God Is Able album, I remember taking notice of this song, esp because it was the last track. I remember telling Jess abt how I liked it and she said that she didnt really like that song as much as the others. And me, being the easily influenced person that I am, thought: Oh ya actually the other songs are nicer.

But seriously something was different about this song.

And then today, some people in school organized a prayer/praise/revival thing and it was so aptly called - The Awakening.

It started off awkward, not really knowing anyone there but Brandon and Rach. And it was awkward for awhile. But when we started worshipping and praising in that mini LT, really. Something was different.

It's not something I can describe, and it definitely wasnt atmosphere because the singing/guitar was awkward at times. But there was really a tangible presence of God in that place. And something in my heart started to break. Like literally I could feel it start to ache.

I started aching for the lost, for the broken, for how I'd been forsaking God's call to be salt and light. I started hurting thinking about the Cross, the pain He bore, and just the immensity of His love.

The only way I can describe it is really: My heart is overwhelmed.

Something in me started stirring, like continually stirring, producing more and more of whatever God was pouring in and crying out for even more. For even greater. For so much more.

Do you know that when we lift our hands in worship, it's in the exact position that someone would be in if they were sitting down and asking you to pull them up? It came to me while I was singing and really just enjoying God's presence. This mental image of me raising my hands, and God's own two hands grabbing a hold of them and pulling me up.

He really is my strength like no other.

When God turns your world upside down, there's no way that you can continue going through it the same way you did before. The way we live has got to change the moment the way we see changes.

Ahhh I cant even formulate a proper post because all I can remember is that stirring in my heart. While I was praying with Rach something in me was just burning and it's like I just went on and on without having to think or phrase or be whatever I was supposed to be. While I was worshipping I didnt have to care about how other people would look at me (I was standing at the back anw) and this dude next to me started dancing and I just wanted to dance!

Ok I am totally not coherent anymore but all I know is that there's been an awakening, and there will continue to be one.

God, continue stirring, continue breaking, continue pouring forth and really AWAKEN this school to see the glory of Your name! Logically I dont know how any of these plans will work but I know that You are beyond logic and beyond reason and beyond expectations.

I am not the perfect testimony and I fail You all the time, every single day, but I believe You're gonna work despite our inadequacies because the day of the Lord is really approaching and there's just got to be so much more than this!

2011-06-21T23:40:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I look at other people - The richer and/or the smarter - and momentarily think "I wish I could be them instead." I always get strange thoughts like these around exam period because I start thinking that it'd be easier if I were smarter like ________ or I wouldnt have to study this hard if I were richer like _______.

But that moment of wishing always passes quickly, because I realise how fortunate I am to be me. How blessed I am to know that God has a plan for me, and in the end it'll turn out okay. I look at my family, my friends, my life and realise that God's blessed me with so much, that it's rly dumb to wish I could be someone else.

I really hate studying, because I'm deathly afraid that I'll still flunk though I spent all my time studying instead of playing. While other people party like a rockstar and still do better than me. But I guess it's just because this is RJ, and it's just the way things work. I just need to study harder to do as well because I'm just not as smart as the rest of them.

I think this is definitely the holidays I've spent the most time studying, but it's been okay because I've spent alot of time with different lovely people studying and it makes everything better :)

I don't want to be a mugger, but I guess I just have to make myself one to survive these 2 years.

Really need to get rid of the thoughts of "I wish I didn't have to study" or "I wish I were smarter" or "I wish I could go cut my hair" and just FOCUS.

Feel like I'm missing out on so much this holidays because my responses are always "Sorry can't, my mum wants me to study."

But it'll all be worth it once CTs are over because our family will be together again for the first time in 5 years and I'm gonna make the most out of it! Can't wait to be altogether playing/shopping/going crazy with Dajie Erjie and Jeanjiejie again hehehehe :)

I'm sorry that my first post in so long is about studying.......... But this is all that's on my mind now.

Ok not ALL but... mainly. Haha.

Sometimes I wish I could just blink and A levels would be over. But though there's alot of crap in JC, I'm gonna learn to enjoy the moment so I dont regret it once it's gone.

Okay for now, I need to stop getting distracted, stop slacking and STUDY! A quote from Twitter: Doing your best is way more important than being the best.

For some reason I just started singing the pokemon song in my head. But anw I'm gonna rly try to give it my best and catch em all pokemon~

Hehe if you still read this drop a tag, it'll be nice to have some humans replace the robot taggers swarming the tagbox!

2011-02-22T23:44:00.003+08:00

I AM BACK! Hahaha because I just had to post this somewhere... Papa exploring the new MSN hahahahahaha super cute pl0x!

Just typing all sorts of rubbish while he was sitting next to me. Hahaha my paps rocks (:

Vera and Syahirah crack me up in sch hahaha we've taken a liking to sitting near the HP canteen.. Wonder why? (:

HAHA OK BYE~

2011-02-21T20:08:00.004+08:00

Blogger is no longer on my top visited pages at Chrome anymore, because Twitter is much easier to access without a desktop.

Orientation's long gone, had fun with BW06, getting to know 12S07B now, making some lovely friends in RJ, trying to live a life that reflects His light into the lives of others.

All in all the past 2 months have been fun I guess, but adjusting to JC life is alot harder than I thought it'd be. There're some things abt this new sch that make me upset, alot of times when I get upset with myself for thinking/acting a certain way, but there're also lots of wonderful moments with old friends and new friends that I thank God for (:

Alot of things are very superficial. Everyone trying to impress everyone else, trying to fit in, trying to be cool - doing anything to avoid looking like that loser J1. I'm not judging, because what right do I have to judge when I find myself doing so sometimes. It takes alot of strength to resist getting sucked into the superficiality, to resist conforming to be accepted, but thank God that He is my strength and in Him, I find my place.

So many times where I find myself looking at the cliques, the groups, the OGs, the classes, all sitting together laughing happily, and feel sorry for myself that I'm a loser/loner. But then He reminds me that I dont need the approval of man and I dont need to care how people look at me. They don't know me anyway, He does (:

Ok I know I'm making my JC life sound miserable, but it hasn't been all THAT bad la. I have The Ex Chair in my class for the next 2 yrs, and she motivates me to be a mugger 8D People like the Chwelvers and Rachel brighten up my day (: And 7B gets better for me everyday - I start to see more of what people are like, and become better friends with some of them (:

I just need to find a way to raise my flag for Him high, and that's the part I struggle with most I think. How to let people know that I'm different, because Christ is in me. How to not get sucked into the gossiping and talking behind people's backs, even though I myself am not their biggest fans. How to enlarge my capacity to love. How to be salt and light, and to be a blessing to their lives.

Honestly, I'm so grateful for His unending mercies that are new everyday. Even when I fail, my God prevails. And each time I realise how inadequate I am, it really draws me back to Him and reminds me that He is more than enough for me.

I guess I've sorta mellowed a bit.. I'm a little less crazy in school because I dont know that people as well. I'm a little quieter in church because my life isnt as smoothsailing as it usually is. But I think it's good in a sense... I'm doing more self-reflection and kinda learning more about the once-dreaded Silence and Solitude. Hahaha.

Finally, as a reminder to myself: Do not judge, but love as He loves.

Ok see you on Twitter! Not sure when I'll be backkkk~

2011-01-21T19:40:00.003+08:00

SATs are tomorrow.

And I know they're not THAT big a deal, cos if you mess it up then you can just not apply to US universities + you have 2 years left to retake it.

But I took the practice test, and didn't do too well. Like, not well AT ALL by Singapore/RJC standards. And I know it's just a practice, and tomorrow might be better, and it's NO BIG DEAL, but it made me feel really lousy.

I'm mediocre. I should be used to it already, because I've basically been mediocre all my life. I'm not stupid, but not smart either. I'm not ugly, but not that pretty. I'm okay at most things, but not great at anything.

Maybe that's just it, maybe I'm just really tired from being so mediocre all the time, and the practice test today just sorta confirmed that that's what I am.

I know I'm lazy, and Mum always says that if I studied harder, then I could be as smart as whoever else. But sometimes, just sometimes, I dont like to study too hard because I'm scared that even if I do, I'll still not be as smart or be able to do as well. Then it'd just prove that I'm dumb, and not just lazy.

Sigh okay I'm not really emo about it or whatever, just sorta bummed. And not feeling TOO confident for tomorrow. But I shall try to stop it. I will still revise, sleep early, and give my best tmr.

It's at times like these that I'm thankful for my faith, and for my God. Because even when I feel so mediocre, I'm reminded that my life is not about how ordinary I am, but about how extraordinary He is. Though sometimes it doesn't FEEL like it, in my heart I KNOW that's what it is.

So no matter how lazy I feel, I really do try to give it my best, so that God will be happy with me. And even at times when I feel unloved, I remember that God still loves me, No Matter What (:

2011-01-21T13:12:00.007+08:00

So, completely late on this, and I wonder how many people still bother to come here, but I am so thankful for the fantastic birthday celebration that I got to have with all the people God has blessed me with, really (:

First on Saturday, met Hannah for lunch (: Which is ALWAYS good.

Thank You God for helping me through CG and for the blessed time of sharing and everything we had (: The initial nervousness was good in a sense, because it really forced me to rely SOLELY on God and I believe that's the only reason everything turned out well (: I want every CG session to be like that!

As we were about to end CG, suddenly the door flew open and in came Multiplied CG (aka Tiara/Jesse/Sab's CG) with a cake singing happy birthday (: Completely surprised!! And then I totally screamed when I saw that the cake was AWKWARD TURTLEEEEEE omgsh cutest cake EVER. Baked by Jeanjiejie and Joshua, who drove all the way down to church to deliver it (: SO SWEET.

Love you alot alot (:

Second, the entire week of worrying how Sunday's chillax @ Jo's thing would turn out, wondering if people would come (aft a not-so-great experience with the party before) and wondering if it'd be fun was for nothing because Tiara and Joanne came through (:

Had a really really fun time at Jo's house, despite their plan to try to disappoint me and people pangseh-ing last minute and everything. Hahaha. Wii boxing and cooking mama, stupid photos, wonderful presents/cards, swimming, pizza, cake, and basically a retarded time with epic people (:

Thank you thank you thank you guys for planning everything and for the fake emails and whatever to try to disappoint me and then surprise me, it almost worked (: Hahaha jkjk I'm really thankful for friends like you (:

Bigbig love (:

Third, Sab Mone and Deb brought me out aft school on Monday and we went all the way to Pasir Ris. Hahahaha not knowing what we were even going to do, Sab told me about her brilliant idea to bring us to this thing called Explorerkid to play in their ballpit/indoor playground, but we found out its for kids 12 and under. HAHAHAH.

Ended up spending the aftn at the arcade and taking neoprints, which was EPIC FUN (: Hahahaha thank you guyz I love yall (:

Dinner with the family at Dozo in the evening, which was obvi really nice (:

And lastly, to top off the wonderful wonderful birthday, this is what happened a couple days later on Twitter (:

TED FROM WONGFU RETWEETED ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Teehee ok totally being a fangirl geek here but SRSLY (: I tweeted them the photo of the awkward turtle cake and HE RETWEETED (: Hehehehehe THIS IS AWESOME.

In conclusion, BEST BIRTHDAY EVER. So thank you guyz (: And thank You God for wonderful family and friends!

2011-01-13T21:40:00.002+08:00

So it's been 2 days in RI (sian I wanted to type RJ), and it's been okay so far I guess.

Everyday we just have a gazillion talks, but it's not that bad because even if it's boring, the Performing Arts Centre, where we have the talks, is SUPER comfortable. And the talks give me alot of time to spend with Deb Sab and Mon so (:

One thing I rly like about RI so far is the beautiful campus. ITS SO BIG AND NICE AND WINDY no joke ahhh it makes me rly happy to get 2 yrs with this campus (: Also, SO NEAR TO MY HOUSE!

One thing I dont like abt RI so far is that the RI Sec and RI JC uniform looks the same so the J1 guys dont look as noob as we do in our pinafores!!! I always feel so out of place and small and little. Also, I'm totally getting lost around the huge campus hahaha.

The downtime has been doing me good. Lots of time to think, lots of time to relax and lots of time to sleep (: Had a 4 hour nap this aftn aft school, which is why I'm so awake now. And I'm getting further in my Jim Cymbala book called You Were Made For More, which is really encouraging me to press in for more of God in my everyday life (:

A lil nervous to lead CG this week... You'd think that after doing it for more than a year that I'd be over this phase. But it's a new CG, and I'm really trying to focus on how to make us have more of a culture of open sharing. Ayeeee not sure how I shld go about doing that, and so dreading the awkward silence.

So I will practice what this lesson is talking about, and Learn To Listen to God's voice! :D I guess if God's leading then it wont be awkward/strange/boring because He will speak to them, hopefully through me (:

10.02 now! Pray for God to send us into our harvest fields! Trying my best to bless others even if all we do everyday is sit in a hall (i.e. not that much interaction). God send us!!

2011-01-11T15:30:00.003+08:00

It's been a gooooood quiet cooling morning, thank You God (: What a nice way to end the 2 month long holiday!

Did my QT early because I'm headed to Sab's house soon for our sleepover (FINALLY), and have been watching alot of Disney/Pixar youtube videos because I'm now hooked on this tumblr called thedisneyprincess.tumblr.com IT IS SO CUTE SRSLY (:

Watched (for the 2nd time I think) the intro scene from Up, and omgsh I totally cried ): It was so sweet!!!! Disney really knows how to tell a story. I think this might be like one of my favourite Disney scenes/montage sort-thing of all time. The music is so emotive, and old people in love are like AHHH so cute (:

As one of the comments said, "Only Pixar can describe life in a video in less than 5 minutes."

And also, playingonrepeat this morning is the duet from Tangled, which is also SO SWEET ahhhh hehehe (: Mandy Moore and Zachary Levi have really nice voices!

This one has nothing in the video, just a picture and the song. But wow the song is so beautiful~

AHHHHH DISNEY FTW (:

School starts tomorrow, but I guess I'm pretty okay about it because it's still induction, and then orientation! Hope it's not too boring (:

2011-01-11T00:15:00.003+08:00

Speidi told me not to blog cos it's too late but I decided since this tab was alr open WHY NOT okay it'll be a quick one.

Piped for the first time in like 3 months today. I am proud to say that I have not lost all ability at piping! Though my stamina could do with much improvement. But it was pretty cool learning from the pro dude from Singapore Pipe Band.

Scared because I have 3 new songs to learn + 4093840293 else to revise in 2 weeks, but excited because it's our first performance "out" of Shirim + we're getting $$ teehee.

Thank God for HCL results (: It's not SUPER but it's pretty decent.. It's a grade that I deserve and is quite an accurate reflection of my chinese standard (I hope). My convo with Ms Lee while collecting results:

Ms Lee: What are you expecting?
Me: Not very much...
Ms Lee: Then I think you will be quite pleased (:

Hahaha.

Got to yell at Sec2s today when we went back for GB and taught them drill. It was fun, I have missed it much. But srsly, HOW IN THE WORLD am I scarier than Rachel Lim Yun Shi??? Quote Joelle, "She is the stuff of nightmares" HAHAHAHAHAHA if you were my senior I'd totally run away from you.

But you're not, and thats why I still luv u (:

Watched Gulliver's Travels and totally LOLed + ROFLed along with Mummy, although Mummy was TOTALLY the loudest person in the whole cinema. It was sorta embarrassing but really funny haha Mum is so cute. And the movie was quite funny!!! Although retarded. Totally my style~

Came home to eat steamed crab for supper. And it was raining. So it was suuuuuuuuper extra shi0k pl0x. Today was a good day, thank You God (:

Cant believe I dreamt of you last night. Ahhhhhh.

2011-01-09T23:27:00.007+08:00

Today was such a fun day! ... I feel so young typing that. Thats what I used to write like in Sec1 hahaha. But it's truuue.

Went for 1st service alone, met Tiara and convinced JoshYap and Dom to join ushering (YESSSSSS!), and then went for 2nd service with Tiara Jew & Ryan! Okay I dont usually go for both services, esp since the message was the same, but I figured it'd be a better use of my time than just lepaking around the youth room.

And today there was a song that really spoke to me.... even though it is by Don Moen..... who is old. Hahahahah.

As we worship You, let all the world come and see
How the mercy we received from You can set them free
As we worship You, let all this joy that fills our hearts
Bring a hunger and a hope to those who strayed so far

As we worship You, let all the nations hear our song
Song of Jesus and His blood that proved His love for all
As we worship You, may all the lost and broken come
May they hear Your still small voice call out their names each one

When I was young I used to find this song kinda.... exaggerated. Because we would sing it in Sunday service at church, and I'd be thinking, "Huh.... you mean by just singing some song, it'll change so many things for so many people? It's just singing a song what..."

But today as I sang it (3 times), I realised what the words were meant to mean. It didnt mean that as we stood in the church sanctuary and sang these songs, that things would happen.

Worship isn't just singing songs, but worship is giving God all the worth that He deserves. And our lives are meant to be our worship.Our lives, redeemed by grace, is the worship that we give Him. The way we live, the image of Christ that we portray in our everyday lives outside of church, is the worth that we are giving God.

And so it is when our lives are truly worshipping God, that amazing things mentioned in the song will start to happen. People will see the mercy that can set them free, they will be filled with joy and hope, the lost and broken will know that He cares for each and every one of them. That is the things that can happen when we TRULY worship Him with all that we have.

I really hope that I can do this. I really wanna BE a witness, and not just do witnessing. By His strength and grace, I pray that God will use my life as a testimony. That He will help me to love as He loves, and spend enough time to find out people's questions, so that I can show them that the answer is Jesus (:

Aft that, we had lunch and then Tiara ended up coming to my house to chill! Had such a fun afternoon PWNING at Guess The Sketch, screaming and laughing at everything stupid, praying for each other at 10.02pm and then having.... HTHT (: Ahhhh love you gurl~ Thanks for being so INSANE and kewwwwt and thanks for all the fun (:

There are many things that I would like to say to you, but I dont know how -- Oasis

I dont know if I miss you, but I miss us. There're so many things that we never really settled. The end seemed so unclear and foggy. Is this really just it? Am I clinging on to something that isn't there anymore? Should I just give it time to learn to let go? Or fight to give it another try?

2011-01-04T01:03:00.019+08:00

Oh! I realised I never did a thanksgiving thing. Or a conclusive/reflective 2010 thing. Okay I dont know if I can, but let's give it a shot.

2010 was........ stressful at some times, but exciting and enjoyable at most times. So many wonderful memories that I have to remember my last year in RGS and the beginning of LOUD Gen!

Things/people that I thank God for:

Chwelf: The Fangirls

For all the spastic/crazy/insane/screamy moments that I've managed to share with so many people this year. Asian American Fangirls ftw!!!! (: DANCEBREAAAAK~

Deb Sab and Mone

For brightening up each day of school for me, and our various sleepovers at which we talk about anything/everything/stupid things/deep things/superficial things/watch Bring It On 3/eat alot. I love you guys (:

45th Exco

For all our serious yet retarded exco meetings and for just being such good friends to me (: Running March Camp + Night surprise together, and for being the craziest FAM table!!

Shirim

For just being the best juniors/batchmates I could ask for and for rolling & blowing them all away!!! Just seeing you guys grow to where you are now makes all of our hard work and time worth it (:

LOUD Gen

So so so thankful for all the blessings that I've received through LOUD Gen! Just seeing young people passionate for God and seeing us grow in unity as a ministry is something that I'm so happy to have seen in 2010 (: And of course for such a wonderful bunch of people that I've gotten to know!

For the new friends that I've made and for the people that I've gotten to know better, like Joanne and Tiara, accountability/mentoring buddies that always make me ROFLMAOZEDONG (: Ok la Jew too. For the lepak dinner people that make my Saturday evenings retarded (: And of course for the close friends like Hannah that I've remained close to (:

For Leaders' Cell, in Ryan-Uhh-Okay-La-Best-Host-Eva-Sim's house, I love this entire group of barbarians/gangsters that we've become hahaha. No but really, this is a cell that I really feel so comfortable to share in and I'm so thankful to have gotten to know so many of you better this year (:

This is like the only group photo that we have! But of course I am thankful for all the people who have joined us since this photo was taken haha.

For my CG, for all the times you dont really listen to Jesse/me talk, for all our MRT games, for all our UCGDs, for all the times you make me LOLOX, for just being the retarded funny cute lame retarded bunch of people that you are (: I truly will miss you guys but I'm looking forward to seeing you all grow in God and bringing friends to make your new CG explode!!! (:

Also thankful for Rachel, Shiren, Felly, Julia and Ness joining LOUD Gen and our CG!!! :D

For CAMP RADICAL, which was the most impactful youth camp for me, SALTY AND SHINY!!! Luke 10:2 :D

For NO MATTER WHAT, all the fun we had at rehearsals, makeup and hair, and all the people that I got to know better! Of course, for the salvations that happened because of it (:

Of course, not forgetting the best family that I could ever wish for (: For such godly parents that encourage me in what I do and for being such a cute family where we can all talk abt random stupid things and laugh at each other (: DJ your cardboard head is... in the photo in spirit! Haha.

Okay so this ended up being more of photo post than I had intended, but while looking for the photos I remembered so many things about last year, and all the amazing experiences I got. He's really been faithful to me in so many ways, like my back and stuff, and it's His grace that has kept me walking close with Him, even though I falter sometimes.

Quite confident that at the end of this year I will have an even harder time doing a thanksgiving post because it's gonna be EPIC (:

2011-01-04T00:40:00.003+08:00

So I'm not usually the new year's resolution kinda person, but.... I have a feeling that 2011 is gonna be something different.

I've been thinking about what I'd want to be/do this year. I spent a couple nights thinking of the many things I could decide to be resolute (or not) about, and instead of having many unrealistic goals and dreams, this is my 1 new year's resolution for 2011:

That I will live not for myself, but for God, as He lives in me.

It encapsulates all that I want to do and be in 2011 (and hopefully beyond). I wanna glorify God with every aspect of my life (yes that means I'm gonna put in more effort in my studies), and really be RADICAL for Him wherever I go and whatever I do!

Gonna respond in obedience, trusting in Him to guide me to do crazy/strange/RADICAL things for Him. Whether it be in LOUD Gen, CG, my class, my CCA, the bus, the MRT etc etc.

And right now I'm starting to feel a lil overwhelmed with how impossibly ideal this sounds, but hey, my God is the God of the impossible. And if He is for me, then who/what can be against me? (:

Dear God, please give me the strength to live each day for You, to rely on Your strength and to let You do what You want with my life! I'm keeping my eyes heavenward (:

BRING IT ON, 2011 (:

2011-01-03T00:55:00.003+08:00

Saturday was much needed. It was painful, but it was a much needed lesson. About dealing with pride, with hurt and with bitterness.

I hadn't even knew that it affected me that much. I guess it just felt like too many things coming at me from all these different places. So many different feelings that I didn't even know how to handle it.

I hadn't made a big deal about it. I dismissed it as trivial. I said it wasn't even real. But I guess it was. And I only realised it when I couldn't come to God properly because it was just standing in my way.

But I guess crying out to God was what I really needed to do. And He guided me in how to handle most of it. He brought people along who cared (thank you guys, esp Jess). He really spoke, through so many avenues. Thank You God (:

Now I'm just left with trying to forget it. This last thing. I thought I'd gotten over it a couple of days ago. But then yesterday I realised that.. I hadn't. My heart still kinda hurts. And that sucks.

But I'm fine, I'm not 'emo' anymore, and I'm re-experiencing His joy (: So all is good.. sorta. Not gonna let it stand in my way of doing great things for God! I know it'll pass soon, just need some time I guess.

And beeteedubs, I started a diary! Using the book that Joanne got me from India (: Wheeee~

Lastly, Hannah: You are ridiculous and it is absurd. Hehehehehe. JK I still love you (:

Hope we get to play laserquest tmr at our final CG outing!!!!!

2010-12-14T15:12:00.003+08:00

I dont know if I can fully post about how RADICAL Camp Radical was, because the radical change is still taking place, and WHOA is it exciting!

Honestly, it was one of the best camps I might've been to because Pastor Daniel Chua was so honest with his preaching! So many things he talked about made me stop and rethink the ideas and mindsets I had about church/faith and everything. It's time we stop playing church and start going out there into the world for God!

Young people in Loud Gen have been doing crazy things for God, like praying for strangers and telling random people at the MRT station how much Christ loves them. It's srsly so encouraging! Really motivates me to want to do something for Him too. Now I've stopped bringing my ipod onto the bus so that I can be open to who God wants me to go and talk to (:

Was really happy to have Ness, Yihhui and Janne come for Camp Radical, I really hope you guys had fun! And more importantly, drew closer to God (:

Games were siow pl0x, had alot of fun with oil soap water flour waterbombs flourbombs sugarbombs etc etc etc and Team CYANIDE thank you for being so cute (:

So thankful for this camp really, I'm gonna start my new school year in RI(JC) right! I wanna be the salt poured out of the saltshaker, that we may flavour the world! And be the light in the darkness (:

Lastly, so happy to have learnt about the Luke 10:2b virus, which is when you pray for labourers to be sent into the harvestfield everyday at 10.02 am/pm. It's really changed me!

I am NOT gonna let the world take away what God has put in our hearts, and I'm determined to share God's love as I go along everyday (:

And I know it's gonna be hard because we are such sinful people, and I falter so many times (like yesterday) but God I believe Your grace is sufficient for me and so I pray that You will use me, noob as I am! It's not about me, it's about You (:

Off to PPP! Of all things girly, pink and princessy (: BYEEEE

2010-12-01T01:36:00.005+08:00

Haven't been here in forever, so here's Hedda Gabler, FAM, GB Farewell, All in a Day's Work and Hongkong in a summary of photos (:

Full albums will be on FB once time permits (:

5 DAYS TO CAMP RADICAL AHHH! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

2010-11-12T20:57:00.003+08:00

Thank God chinese is over!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D I'm finally free to do whatever I want teehee (:

OH YEAHHHHH~

I'm watching so much TV and Youtube that this is me:

(Well actually it's Wes TEEHEE)

Okay just finished my RI matriculation thing, now off to meet Rachel to shop before youth! (:

2010-11-04T19:25:00.003+08:00

Because I am on the desktop ninja-style, here are photos from my last weeks in RGS and tweets to describe how I feel abt graduation...

TV OT :D

MARTINI FACES~~

CHWELF :D

Last day..... :( Was extra particular abt my hair and pinafore today. But they look the same as everyday, and that's how I want to rmb it :)

I don't know whether to be embarrassed but I totally cried at the last time we sang Hand In Hand. SWEAT FROM MY EYES~

Danced so much today, to Mrs Ang's amusement. AT THE EXPENSE OF MY DIGNITY, I GRANTED HER REQUEST. I HOPE YOU'RE HAPPY MRS ANG~

Did the light flicking thing for awhile but we were afraid that the lightbulbs would explode and Estate would kill us.

Being the genius that Chwelf is, they wrote a song on the spot and we recorded a video of the class singing :D

The last thing I did before leaving RGS today was run around the class with Shiren singing Rocketeer at the top of our lungs <3

I'm still kinda sad, but not really because I'll miss the people (since we'll still see each other alot)....

I'll miss Chwelf. I'll miss 45th. I'll miss the teachers & juniors. I'll miss the liberty of being stupid and not caring how unglam I look.

And even though the people may be almost the same, everything will still be different. I'll miss you RGS <3

2010-11-02T23:40:00.002+08:00

Hi guyz I haven't been here in forever, too many things have been too fun and I've gotten lazyyyy.

Talent Vogue went fantastic, thank God! Lovvve you OT and Chwelf, I had sosososo much fun (: Congrats to Ting and Mone and the rest of the gymmers for doing a great job at gym concert!

Had our last netcarn yst with Chwelf and WOOOOOTS 3rd place for cheer! Hahahahaha too epic la! Good job Deboz it paid off :) screamed my heart out along the sidelines and obviously SANG AND DANCED ALONG THE SIDELINES to hype our team up :D it was so retarded! Best netcarn eva (y)

It's been so fun having random dance parties everywhere while making our own music (e.g. DOOMCH DOOMCH DOOMCH DOOMCH) hahahahaha I'm thinking abt the dance break that almost happened on the netball court yst.. WE ALMOST HAD ITTTT.

I love you guys so much Chwelf :) :) :) I don't know whether it's possible to find another class that will put up with all my nonsense and join me in my craziness.... Not ready to leave you guys :'( you'll always be my besssst class *perv face*

Can't believe it's our last official day of lessons tmr (CHINEEESE) and then farewell assembly on Thursday... 2 DAYS LEFT IN RGS?!?!?!?! NOOOOOOooooo it's all coming too soon ):

Ah well.

My plan for the next 7 days leading up to my HCL O levels is:
- No turning on the desktop
- Only use mum's iPhone to check my email, fb and twitter
- Watch the Chinese news every night
- Sleep by 12 every night
- DO LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS OF CHINESE!!!!!

Okay bye guyz seeya when my freedom arrives!

2010-10-29T00:59:00.008+08:00

OH EM GEE just finished TV stuff and I'm 1 hour too late on this side of the world but because of the time difference, I'm very on time so HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHIL! (: (: (: (:

Tag your green (:

Technology Ruins Romance!

I love you Phil for being so super retarded and funny, for starting Wongfu and for turning me into an insane fangirl! FYI I have officially watched every single Wong Fu video (y)

Okay TALENT VOGUE IS TOMORROW, CROSSING MY FINGERS AND PRAYING HARD THAT ALL GOES WELL!

2010-10-26T21:21:00.001+08:00

Hahahahahahahahahaha

2010-10-26T20:51:00.007+08:00

I can't believe how much I look the SAME as I did in Sec1!!!!!!!!!

Mone and I were just talking today abt how people get prettier when they get older, or at least when they reach upper sec (FR), but even she had to agree that I looked the same as I did when I first came into RGS. With the exception of my newly rearranged teeth of course :D

My 2 current favourite photos of myself (from Jodi) in which I think I look about 7 years old (:

And you can probably guess why it's my favourites (although I am in my messy school hair and my complexion is D:)

Hahahahahahaha I just discovered this photo (Thanks to Rach) which is encaptioned:

-creeper-

ROFLMAOZEDONG!

It's strange tho, because when I tie my hair up in school, I look too young to be Sec4. But when I let my hair down at other times, people say I look old! So what am I supposed to do...... Hahaha.

Okay that was just a random post. I should really be doing more Chinese. But for now, I will work on my TV script! Chinese............................ SIGH. I am just gonna put it out there and say that I am blaming J Daddy for this lack of motivation to study!!!!!!!!!

Amgsh after HCL Os I'm srsly getting a tumblr FURREAL!!!!! I alr found Wongfu tumblrs and I love all the stupid pictures :D :D :D

I love Phil's face hahahahahaha.

Hahaha okay enough for today. Gonna try to be productive!!!

2010-10-25T18:09:00.005+08:00

JOEL TAY JIAN XIONG IS COMING BACK TODAY YAY (:

Hahahaha had an interesting convo with him yst while he postponed his packing.... which we shall nv speak of again! Yay now you can help me with the Tshirt printing (:

20 min till Amazing Race shows on channel 5 yayyayayayyy (:

Zone outing at Jesse's house on Sat did not turn out like how I expected it to be at all, but I still had a TON of fun shrieking with Rachel Felly and Jaslyn while scrubbing their kitchen... I am glad I do not live in a house with 3 boys!!!!! PLS CLEAN YOUR ROOM THANKS~ Hahaha (:

Ended up staying over at Jas' house, she has a projector screen in her study room WHOA!!! We watched Nick J's face on bigscreen! Kath and I swooned (:

I slept for 2 hrs in the school library today when I was supposed to be doing Chinese. Ahhhhh I feel really guilty. I rly shld study harder for Chinese.........

We dissected a frog in Bio today. Was kinda gross but actl REALLY COOL. I shall not describe it here but hahaha I screamed alot!

Okay Idk why I'm still feelin to sleepy. Shall go watch Amazing Race then interview Mum for my lit assignment I need to present tmr!

I just want the weekend to come now.... So scared for TV! I hope it works out well~ AHHHH.

OH OH my fave from Wongfu's 3 new Tag Your Green videos!

Ted: Phil, how does that make you feel?
Phil: Anger. I have the anger.
Ted: Wonderful! And Wes, how does Phil's anger make you feel?
Wes: Happy. No wait, incredibly happy.
Phil: I hate you.
Wes: Haters gon hate~

LOVE THEM :D And I super love the almost-HTHT ending hahaha.

2010-10-22T23:22:00.002+08:00

I'm really sad that there is no Wongfu Weekends today ):

I'm really sad that Loud Day Out 2 got cancelled because of the haze ):

I'm not that sad abt Net Carn getting postponed because of the haze tho.... Otherwise Debo and I would be scrambling to do the cheer now haha.

Recce tmr! Now I can wake up later yayyy.

Went to the Private Clinic in SGH today for my 2nd opinion, it was so atas! Hahaha. Waited like an hr to see him, played angry birds on Erjie's iphone :D

The doctor was srsly funny (but not rly haha funny) and the whole time I just kept thinking HE LOOKS LIKE ZEKZEK hahahaha. He talked for a verrrry long time tho... But the important thing is:

NO NEED FOR SURGERY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

I mean, I'm still in the grey zone and all. But I feel more assured that he thinks I dont rly need the surgery now (: So yay!!! Thank You God (:

Soooo tired amgsh I think it was from staying up till 2am yst.... watching Kris. HIS INTERVIEW WITH JIM CANTIELLO WAS HILARIOUS AHHHH HE IS TOO CUTE~ Hahaha.

And Talent Vogue Rehearsal all the way until 7plus today, ahhh I hope it goes well! 1 WEEK TO TV~~~~

Lastly, we finished watching Back To The Future in history class today. I LOVE IT!!!! And if I were a kid from the 1980s, I would totally have a crush on Michael J Fox! He's so cute in the show hahaha. And this yr was the Back To The Future 25th anniversary! He kinda looks the same.... Too cool (:

Okay head is pounding, need sleep, no more youtube, BYE GUYS~

2010-10-18T23:36:00.004+08:00

My emotional state nowadays is making me a big sap!!!!!! Bigger than I usually am, and that says alot. Hahahaha.

From YQ's tumblr:

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwww (:

Mass convo with chairs was mad hahaha. Am excited for farewell! (: [THOUGH DRESSCODE IS ?!]

Okay off to do qt and sleep!

2010-10-18T16:01:00.002+08:00

Ariel and Lucas looking SUPER CUTE in the matching Threadless tees that Jeanjiejie bought them! Hahaha srsly omgsh too cute, I couldnt help but post it! (:

Didn't go to sch today, sad that I missed netcarn stuff with Chwelf ): But the extra sleep was much needed. I've been sleeping SO MUCH today, I'm falling asleep between like every question in my chinese paper!!! UNACCEPTABLE. Why am I so tired?!??!

I feel like eating cake. Back to chinese.....

2010-10-18T00:01:00.011+08:00

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide it's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Let's try to take it back before it all went wrong

3rd time listening to this song tonight! Been liking this song alot more ever since Debo pointed out the verses, The Script sings faaaaaaaast! But I really do like the abovementioned chorus..

It's kinda sad, but beautiful.

2010-10-17T23:08:00.002+08:00

I miss this place. Haha I've come here so much less ever since Twitter appeared.

I'm sickkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. Not with Beiber Fever, but with the flu ): Been sick the entire weekend and wah super extremely tired. But this weekend, though super packed, was really really great :D

Friday - Pizza Hut, Starbucks white chocolate mocha frap and Life As We Know It with Wenyuan and Jaime! (: Lovvved the movie, for once I picked a good one for us!

Spent the entire Saturday in church, which is really my favourite way to spend it (: Worship prac early in the morning, super drowsy because of The Flu (not the medication!) and my nose and ears were both blocked, but somehow managed to co-lead worship, thank God (: Hope it wasn't too bad! I was kinda blinded by the flashing flashy lights haha.

Post-message worship was srsly not how I expected it. When Ps A said he felt that someone was touched and could share a testimony that would encourage us, I immediately sensed that it was you (: I stared at you from the very start, asking God "If it's really her, please God give her the courage to step out"

When your tears came, it was only too natural for me to want to give you a hug because I do see you as the little sister I never had sometimes (: So I'm rly glad that Ps A called me over, and for some reason, I sorta knew what you were gonna share abt. I just didn't rly expect myself to end up crying with you in front of the youth. But I'm glad things happened the way they did (:

Let's really rmb this reminder that we've been given to keep persisting in prayer, though things seem beyond hope. But really, nothing is beyond hope when God is in the picture, because God is hope (: Take heart!

Had musical dance prac aft that, which was fun cos Kristel and Heidi are sorta mad haha. Just that now my legs hurt!!! Watched the cast practice and just ROFLed with Joanne at Duane ahahaha.

Sunday morning rain is falling~

Leaders Cell was fun, as usual (: Ryan best host eva! And Jess/Jon/Jesse very nicely let me have the umbrella while they walked in the drizzle cos I was sick. Thanks (: Icebreaker = LOLOLOL SUIPOON omgsh I was such a mean kid!!!

Lunch at Fish&Co - It's fun to bicker with Jared over nothing, Jesse's secret to growing tall is sucking lemons, Tiara got light sauce with her Jap Fish and Chips, Fish&Co is racist and sexist, Ryan could sing along to STRAIGHT THROUGH MY HEART by Backstreet Boys (unlike Tianyi), we finished everyone's fries and Chris broke a cup (:

Camp Comm meeting was funnnnnn. I sorta miss last yr's comm tho! Definitely not the same without the spastic ppl like JOEL and BANGZ. But I really do enjoy these meetings, and I've got such a defined job this yr! Makes me feel a lil more secure than last yr haha.

Lepaked around in Joanne's Castle for a long time aft that, half brainstorming and half reminiscing youth camp memories and gg crazy with Ryan Sim's "UHHHHHHHHH" (fits) thing hahahahahaha I can't stand it I'm ttly gonna do that all the time!!!!

Eeeeks okay finishing up my bio now. Not feelin very much better. NEED SLEEP. Bye! (:

2010-10-12T00:34:00.003+08:00

WHOA-OH-OH! RGS exams are FINALLY over for me, getting to relax and spam trash for awhile, yayyyy! (:

Math today was so crazily bad it's kinda funny hahaha whatever I've learnt to not care too much since there's nothing I can do now. I REALLY TRIED.

I'm actl pretty impressed with my self control for the past couple of weeks. I held out and didn't watch Grey's/Amazing Race/Jonas LA! And the delayed gratification was TOTALLY worth it! Might do this more often hahaha.

2 eps of Grey's in a row somehow is much better than 1 ep per week! And I really enjoyed these both eps alot, hahaha it was funny yet *()@#$**()$* heartwrenching at times!!! Best combo (:

Watched last week's ep of Amazing Race today, YAY FOR TEAMJUMBA'S 3RD PLACING! :D :D :D No spoilers plssss, I'm gonna watch tonight's episode tmr!

Kev looked mega cute in the safety goggles they had to wear to set up the tv antenna, and he forgot to take it out in the end! Plus, PapaJumba's reaction to them being 3rd place was so cute too! Look at his happy face :D

AHHH CUUUTE (:

My mum came in while Erjie and I were watching, saw Kev and said: Wahhh he really grow up alr hor, quite handsome leh!

And my response was, YESSSS I KNOW RIGHT.

Tomorrow I will continue the slacking to the ultimate, cos Mum wants me to start studying for HCL Os aft that. And so tmr I will: Watch the 3rd ep of Amazing Race and watch all remaining eps of Jonas LA.

If time permits, I may watch Friends Season1&2 (from Chris), possibly start on ANTM? I was just talking to Clarisse today abt how I like ANTM better than BNTM cos even though the americans are way more annoying, the drama is funnier and they're actl better at modelling I feel (: Haha.

ALSO TOMORROW I WILL FREELY SPAM WONGFU/KEVJUMBA/QUESTCREWWWW :D

Hehehehehe LG Life's Good! And from today I will start singing at all times :D

Btw, I felt like a total perv staring at Wes' very nice arms in the last Wongfu Weekends, until I found out that Shiren and Jeanjiejie TOTALLY DID THE SAME!!!! HA I am not the only creep hahahaha but hard to help it la, Wes is really (: when he plays ultimate frisbee! He's pretty pro eh :D

2010-10-09T23:54:00.005+08:00

IT'S A HAPPY HAPPY DAY TO BE A FANGIRL :D :D :D

Wes replied me on FB yesterday, and Phil replied me on Twitter today! :D :D :D :D :D

Okay so it was a really short reply, but STILL. I was hoping that he would reply but I wasn't super expecting it (though this was not as SHOCKINGLY surprising as Wes' reply), so I'm rly happy!

It is probably because I followed Karen's advice and tweeted him smth really weird. Which totally happened btw. Hahaha.

You see that grey airbrush blur? That is my attempt at internet safety because you never know who reads your blog.................. Fine, my twitter is public anw. But if by now you don't know what it is, I don't really want you to find out this way! ESP IF YOU ARE A ROBOT TAGGER.

Heheheheheh I can't believe they both actually replied me, it's still makes me grin like a fool! :D

Someday, I will fly over there and watch an ISA concert. Unless they do ISA Singapore... somewhere far in the future. WHEN I GO TO UNI, I WILL DEFINITELY WORK ON GETTING WONGFU FLOWN IN TO SPEAK!!!!!!!!!! Confirm plus chop okaaaay!

Anw, today was a good good day despite it having to start out with 4 hrs of Chinese (XIAN3 DIAO4)..

Worship was rly rly good, ahhhh srsly just feel the passion and faith building up! Not gonna ever let the world take that away (: And today it was like He was talking to me so clearly... I love talking to my awesome God! And I love it even more when I hear Him speaking back to me in so many different ways (:

Trying to have as big a faith as I can, to trust in my God who is bigger than anything else (: 2nd opinion on 22nd Oct, pray for me!

Tiara led CG for the first time today, and I will say WELL DONE GURL~ Hahaaha it was better than my first time anyways. Hahaha I still rmb feeling so fail esp since JOELTAYJIANXIONG was sitting in the room and was super scary!!!

V proud of you Tiara (: Thank God for helping it to go the way it did! I love talking to the girls in my CG (: You guys are da bomb~ Keep on praying okay!!!

Okay, rly rly rly sleepy from sleeping at 130 last night and waking up at 645 this morn..... NIGHT GUYZ~ Tmr will be Math 2 Day, promise!!!!!!

2010-10-08T21:24:00.004+08:00

Okay so Debo, Tingfang, Shaowei and I were sitting in the school library today doing our History Options presentation. I was done with my part while Ting and Shao were still doing the ppt, so I decided to check my hotmail.

My hotmail gets notifications from facebook when someone comments. And when I opened my mail today, this is what I saw:

My first thought: "Their? Their? Could it be the one I posted? Is it--Whaa--Omgsh ARE YOU SERIOUS?!" *hyperventilates*

Debo's next to me, and asks me what's up.

"OMG OMG OMG I THINK-- WAIT HOLD ON AH--"

Then I click on it and see this:

"OMG OMG OMG WES REPLIED ME?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! ARE YOU SERIOUS?!?!?!?!"

And at this point, Shao and Ting literally leap across Debo's lap to see my desktop, and 3 of us proceed to spasm with very VERY intense hushed shrieking. It was kind of insane.

Okay who am I kidding IT WAS A MADHOUSE SRSLY!!! 3 of us were just like going CRAZY in the middle of the (thankfully) not overly populated desktop area in the sch library.

Still half not daring to believe it, FB shows me this when I go there:

HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

And finally, there it is.

Wes read the words I typed. HE READ THEM, AND HE REPLIED. OMGSH I LOVE WES!!!!!!!!!!!! YAYYYYYYYYYY :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

I still rmb talking to Karen yst during paper checking abt how I dont think he'd reply me cos he just did a spree reply on his fanpage and so it's not v likely that he'd come back again. Shee even suggested I time when I write on his wall. But HE DID REPLY :D :D :D

Totally made my day SERIOUSLY!!!!! When Shiren came to the library, I literally jumped out of my chair and dragged her out of the library so I could openly SHRIEK to her abt it. AHHH :D :D :D

I was sorta insane for the rest of the day, really high (DO THE UNCO SAME THE UNCO SAME THE UNCO SAME) and telling everyone I saw abt it :D (Okay actl just the fangirls who would understand i.e. LIN WENYUAN)

Everytime I think of Wes replying, I start smiling like a fool :D Halfway through our History presentation when Ting and Shao were presenting on nuclear weapons and how it influenced apocolyptic films (all the doomsday stuff), I couldnt help but break into a stupid grin. Then I felt super inappropriate cos I was at the front, so I had to cover it with my hand and make myself stop thinking abt it. HAHAHA.

WHEEEEEEE HEHEHEHEHEHEHE SO HAPPY :D

Okay I'm not AS happy now, but still. This afternoon were GREAT :D Hahaha.

Fangirling aside, thank God for helping me through math paper this morning!!! It went okay, although I made a stupid mistake at the end cos NO TIMEEEE. I was really freaking out last night, but I have the best parents ever (: Mum and Papa were both telling me not to worry and praying for me and the peace of God that transcends all understanding flooded my heart! (:

Excited for Youth tmr :D YAYYYY NESS IS COMING FOR YOUTH CAMP :D :D :D AND SO IS YIHHUI (to accompany Ness cos SHE HAS NO FAITH IN RACHEL/SHIREN/I) WHEEEE SO EXCITING!!!!!

2010-10-06T01:06:00.002+08:00

Sigh today and yesterday's math productivity rate has been an all time low. It is decreasing exponentially!!!! ):

I'm so sleepy now I dont feel like doing anymore so I am going to take the risk of waking up at a not-insanely-late hour tomorrow and finish my P & C practice!!!

I got so badly distracted today SIGH ): First, by Wes' crazy cuteness of replying everyone who wrote on his fb fan page and I freaked out because I just so happened to NOT check the page yst and WHYYYYYY ):

And then, talking to Jeanjiejie abt going to Perth and all that, rewatching FIFY publicity LOLOLOLOL we did the most spastic things ever okay!!!

I am pretty scared for math because though I've been spending so much time practicing, I've been doing it so slowly and getting so much help and WHAT IF I CANT DO THE EXAM??? D: My math sucks sooooo bad.

AND THEN yst I just found out we have our HCL O level mock paper on Sat. Right in between both math papers. I'm not gonna have any time to study! SIGH. Whatever.

Been having spastic fun with Ness and Shiren DO THE UNCO SAME THE UNCO SAME~ You both are so spas you make me laugh like CRAZY. And I like options just because of the nice people I get to spend time with (: And my options are nice too :D

The last weekend has been so amazing just because of how God spoke so clearly on several occasions to me abt the things I'd been worried/concerned/confused about, and just brought such comfort (: Thank God for co-WLing going okay (I think!) and though I utterly embarrassed myself for camp publicity, AH WELL AFG OKAY!

"Without a shadow of a doubt" faith! MY GOD IS THE GOD OF THE SO MUCH MORE (: (: (:

Ahhhh so excited for youth camp and musical and holidays and for exams to be over so that all this exciting things can happen!!!

2010-10-01T20:51:00.002+08:00

Teeeheeee (:

Wasted alot of time today playing taptap on Mum's iphone 4, that song "White Knuckles" by OK GO is vvv fun to play! And you have to see the music video, it's srsly SUPER COOL.

Hahaha tomorrow should be fun :D I hope it goes well! REALLY GOTTA DO MATH NAO~

2010-09-29T20:17:00.002+08:00

Terrified yet thoroughly looking forward to Saturday! My voice doesn't crack/die as much when I dont think about trying to sound good and just sing it to the Lord (: Still kinda nervous but thankyou Joanne haha.

Omgsh my Jeanjiejie is really the best!!!!! I showed her a pic of someone's cake which had the picture of the Awkward Rhino and I told Jeanjiejie I wanted a Biggie Spencer/Awkward Turtle/WONGFU cake for my birthday next yr :D Ahhhh how epic would a wongfu cake be!!!

Anw Jean-Nichole-Jiejie actually went and drew this this morning!!! THANKS I LUV IT :D :D :D

SO CUTE!!!! Tell me, where do you find a sister like this??? :D LUV U JEANAPOK~

Did 4 hrs of math today (more or less), pretty proud of myself!!! But still got alotalot more to do so.... WORK IT GIRL~

Gotta help rewrite some lyrics now, time to put on my Taylor Swift blonde wig and sing a love story!!!

2010-09-26T21:26:00.006+08:00

Ohman I really HATE the stupid robot taggers. DO YOU SEE THIS ROBOTS????? GO AWAY!!!!! I wish I rmbed the user/password for my cbox so I could delete them.... Haha faaail.

Anyway, haha because I am a fangirl: BEST CREW! :D From the new Wongfu Weekends!

Wes' body double HAHA Unco Sam actl looks like a girl I know...
They were trying to be Twilight.... (Ryan looks good!!!)

BEST CREW! BUMBLEBEE EXTREME STEP TEAM~

Hahahaha too cute. DCHOI IN FULL LENGTH YELLOW LEGGINGS ROFL ROFL ROFL~

I'm sad I missed Deaconess Joanne's confirmation today! Cos I was too busy dancing behind Ty Aiden Lim HAHA.

Nigahiga's new song is suuuuper cute ahahahaha parody of Like A G6 by Far East Movement (apparently it's now #2 on itunes in US! :O ASIAN PRIDE~) Haha SUPER CATCHY SRSLY~

Lookin megaaaaaa cute in his Wongfu NG shirt! :D

THE NIGAHIGA FACE HAHAHAHAHA. FOR YOU SHEE~

Playing nice tickle fights, with my sister, when I'm in a rush don't run with the scissors. Using scissors for my crafts cos all my crafts give me joy, now I'm following the rules like a good boy! Like a good boy like a good boy n-n-n-n-n-now I'm following the rules like a good boy :D

Oh lastly - from yst at dinner when we PSed the boys to go window shopping at vivo TEEHEE!

Holding the koke in the side of their mouths till it all turns to foam HAHA.

KEWWWWT

OKAY I'M OFF TO GO EAT DINNER BB~~~~~

2010-09-26T00:47:00.002+08:00

Today was... interesting (:

Had a lovely lovely sleepover at Sab's new meganice house with Sab Deb and Mone, you guys rock! (: We played rockband, watched princess diaries, talked about anything and everything, and all while filling our bodies with trash like prawn crackers, wangwang, seaweed, pocky and MILODINOSAUR! (omgsh I actl typed milodianosaur at first okay hahaha)

Thankyou for the fun night dearies (: We will survive RI(JC) together okay! Hahaha.

Was extremely late for zone lunch (as in 45 min... I know.) I thought it was pretty good except half-worried abt 1 PERSON ZONE next yr haha!

Headed over for youth, had worship and... it was a strange experience. I was standing there, just singing the praise songs, happy to be in the presence of God and all that. I kept praying for Him to just fill the hall, and speak to me as we sang those songs.

And then suddenly I got into this funk. Pastor Adrian started talking, and I started feeling this sort of... cynicism I guess? And then I felt so guilty for doubting, and the feeling of guilt just sorta overwhelmed me.

I started tearing up and I didnt even really know why. But the tears just kept coming. Not alot, but they were there.. And I had to keep looking up to stop them from coming down cos it would've been weird to start crying halfway through Pastor talking.

He made a call for response and I think I was the first one up, bawling my eyes out. I havent cried like that in youth for awhile. I sorta thought I'd matured beyond that stage. But as usual, God broke down that pride. I just stood there crying like a baby and shaking so bad cos I couldnt catch my breath.

The guilt was insane. I started feeling guilty for going back to my old ways during the past week, of lacking discipline in my life and esp in my QT, and I just felt like I failed God. I felt the guilt of having doubt everytime people prayed for supernatural healing for my back. I felt the confusion of not knowing how far my trust should extend. I felt like I'd failed God so bad cos I really wanted to live a victorious life, but I dont think I had been.

I dont really know how to explain it. Everything felt so heavy and I just couldnt worship with all my heart. I just felt so, so sad.

I was thinking abt alot of things as I cried, but the one thing that I believe God placed in my heart was this verse. I couldn't remember it exactly then, but I found it:

Psalm 51:17
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart O God, You will not despise.

And wow the Word of God indeed can lift Your spirits (: God broke me down, took me off that highchair I'd been on, thinking that I was doing pretty okay, and showed me just how much we really need Him all the time. But He put me back together again, and for the better I hope (:

Crying it out felt much better. I hadn't even known that I had felt that way until Aunty Weng told me that she sensed something wrong when she tried to pray for me last week. I guess the fact that someone could sense something wrong with me even though I couldnt must've meant that it was quite serious.

I gotta stop letting the human problems affect my perspective of a holy God. I gotta stop letting my issues with the ministry plant cynicism and doubt in my heart. And I gotta stop letting my problems hinder my faith in Him, because nothing is greater than my God, and nothing is out of His control!

I'm thankful for today, because I felt much.. lighter after it. Just surrendering my worries and doubts and wrong mindsets to Him, and praying for Him to transform me from the inside out.

And thank you Felly for the hug after that, that was really sweet (:

Okay too tired to post abt the rest of the day, will post the stupid funny screenshots from the new WFW tomorrow! And also watch the Grey's season premiere then. Yay (:

2010-09-23T20:00:00.003+08:00

Phil: Think of a time before facebook...

Wes: Yeah you had to poke people for real..

Phil: *pokes Wes*

Wes: Oh! Notification. Hey, let me get that sheep over there and throw it at you.

L-O-L~

I SPENT SO MUCH TIME WATCHING WONGFU TODAY THIS IS VERY BAD I WANNA SEE WONGFU IN PERSON AHHH!

I'M OFF TO DO MATH NAOOOOOO BB!

2010-09-21T23:10:00.005+08:00

JEANJIEJIE YOU ROCK :D

Hahaha came home and felt so happy because I got a package!!! Jeanjiejie actually sent a package all the way from Perth, consisting of supercute teddybear roc candy and my SUPER CUTE Wesny bear!!!! Ahh I srsly love it it's so soft :D

Now I have a carebear named Kris, a plush donut named Wongfu and a foreverfriends bear named Wesny! Hahaha naise (: And Mum has so affectionately nicknamed the Mickeymouse neck pillow......... David Choi. HAHAHA.

Thanks so much Jeanjiejie, I was so pleasantly surprised! My fave was actually the envelope, which was covered in Wongfu quotes! And of course the very sweet letter :D Yayyy I luv u!!

If you can see the envelope, the biggest one is: POPCORN MAKES ME TOOT TOOT. Hahahahah. And all the best quotes from Ted's Best Man :D

Today was a very nice day (: Played some netball during pe till I got tired, then chilled out in class while they played some guitar and Mone Niqian and I started talking abt the hymns that we knew! Turned into a sorta singalong session yay (:

Did some math (just a teeny bit) until we got too hungry so Deb Mone Stef Shiren and I headed to Ion for Fish and Co WOOHOO~~~~~ Haha had a really fun time talking abt alot of rubbish and laughing like crazy at Mone's attempt of an angry face L-O-L. Laughed really hard at so many moments e.g. "So who do you love now?" HAHAHA I have the cutest friends srsly.

Chilled with Ting Shao and Janne for awhile doing what Chwelf has gotten really good at: FANGIRLING. I really think our class is kinda crazy but I love it ahaha. And then had to leave to go collect retainers.

THEY FEEL REALLY WEIRD and the worst part is not that it makes my speech kinda weird, nor that I have to take it out everytime I wanna eat anything, but that I can't stop myself from clicking it!!!!! Like pushing it up and down. Nonstop. All the time. I think the bottom has gotten loose alr and I've only had it for a couple of hours. SERIOUSLY. IT'S SUPER ANNOYING!!!!

Went back in time for some history, which was actually quite interesting, I'm quite looking forward to the rest of the history option! (: PLUS Mr Yang transferred me to the Bio option so YAYYY NO MORE GETTING LOST IN PHYSICS :D Although I may miss Mr Yang aft finding out how weirdly funny he is during that 1 lesson of physics.

OKAY got 2 hours of chinese tomorrow AHH XIAN but got a 3 hr break before Bio option so I hope it's not too bad (:

BB~

2010-09-19T19:30:00.005+08:00

Just had the crappiest fight with my mum cos she started yelling at me over smth I said, and then started yelling about so much stuff that was ttly unrelated. She whacked me on the head with her chopsticks (we were eating dinner) and I was hyperventilating so much from crying that I couldn't eat.

That's the problem when you cry to express your anger. I had to keep reminding myself of yesterday's message about children obeying their parents and force myself not to flare up. I tried really hard to control, but wow it was hard.

Mum just came to apologise for losing her temper, which I thought was very sweet. I guess I shld go apologise for yelling back at her. I'm glad that feuds in my family normally dont last long (:

Now I have a headache from crying so much. And the funniest thing is that what helped me to stop crying was watching the video of Ryan singing Love Story on Band Hero. Hahahahaha.

Didnt' think I'd be able to apply the lesson from yst's message so soon (I dont fight often with my parents... I think) but I guess God's trying to teach me.

I'm determined to be the person God wants me to be, to be a good Christian wherever I am, and not just in church. I'm determined not to talk so much trash, and not to be so worldly. I'm determined to walk the talk.

It's so haaaard, but I will pray hard and really really try. Tired of always slipping back into my worldly ways, it's time to be different! Gonna try my best to honour my parents (That actually sounded quite like Mulan) and to be a good testimony in school (: I WILL NOT BE SUPERFICIAL.

Okay. Really tired. Time to start doing some Math and read some brainless chick lit before school starts again tomorrow ): OPTIONS sigh. I have my first physics option, but I have a 4 hour break in the middle. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO???

But yay because there's PE tomorrow and I miss Chwelf (SORRY I COULDNT GO FOR CLASS OUTING AGAIN~)!

BTW. Band Hero yst night was major epic hahahaha so fun!!! Sang a gazillion songs (No more face left!) and the rly stupid one was when I decided to sing I Want You Back by Jackson 5 because I've loved it ever since Dajie showed it to me. But OHMAN young MJ's voice was SUPER HIGH and I almost died trying to hit all the notes! LOLOX so embarrassing but funny.

RYAN SIM = NICK JONAS SERIOUSLY.

Hahahahaha.

2010-09-18T00:43:00.003+08:00

I think she's sorta right. Although I would add Youtube on that list (:

Didn't have the guts to tell Mrs Kan that I don't have a passion for piano and that I'm lazy to practice so I want to quit. Now, the status is "Uhh... I'll let you know la."

I blame this on my personality type for not allowing me to speak the cold hard truth. It was at this point in my life that I sorta wished I were Rachel. HAHA.

Me: AHHHH I can't believe I couldn't do it!!! Wahlao I'll never be able to break up with my boyfriend next time la...

Mummy: Ya I think so too.... Before you get your boyfriend you better make sure that he's the one you will marry man..

SIGH faaaaail.

Had a fun dinner with Joanne and John talking about anything and everything. Hahaha stupid Jew was MEGA late and Tiara came later too. But WOOTS FAMILY OUTING~

Singing along to Taylor Swift in the car WOOHOO fun! And then we watched She's The Man at Joanne's Castle with Tiara and I trying very hard to resist reciting every line. Hahaha I love that show!!!!!

HAPPY PSEUDO-FAMILYYYYY~

Teehee! Happy that ITS THE END OF THE WEEK, THE WONGFU WEEK, IT'S WONGFU WEEKENNNNNDS! BTW, Cathy is so cute abt Wes in this week's episode AHH!!! I think if I just believe that they're dating, it'll become a reality. LOL JK ONLY~

Looking forward to Youth tomorrow :D :D :D Woohoo okay 1 min till 1am BYEEEE~

2010-09-17T15:36:00.001+08:00

SO EPIC HAHAHA thanks Rachel~

2010-09-16T23:59:00.003+08:00

In one minute, the day will end. And so before it does, I must say: HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICK JONAS! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

I still find you extremely cute and charming in a shy sort of way and even though I liked Joe Jonas more when I was in Sec2, I like you ALOT more now. Also, you always make me daydream that my future boyfriend would serenade me with his guitar and song like how you do on random Disney shows. Thank you for fueling my unrealistic cheesy idea of romance haha.

So first official offday since the (sorta) end of exams today, but I woke up at 830 because we were going to drive over to JB! (: We ended up leaving much later cos of some issues with passports and stuff, so I just watched ANTM at Lester's house while waiting. AHHH so gonna put that on my To-Do List (Slacking Edition)!

The shopping/eating trip turned out to be alotttttt of fun because Les and I were just being stupid the entire time and reliving our childhoods while trying to remember stuff from All That, Kenan and Kel, and The Amanda Show during the carride! And it was also fun because we both like taking photos :D Retarded camwhoring will be uploaded soon!

Ate crazy alot today: Swensens sirloin steak, Swensens icecream, Baskin and Robbins icecream, sushi, some thai steamboat, and more sushi.

But I actl held back alot cos I rly wanted to buy Shilin (IT SMELT SO GOOD) until I realised that my mind wanted it, but my stomach did not. Hahaha. Still so fulllllll.

Just did the random usual shopping (Les actually was me and Mummy's fashion consultant HAHA) and ended up with some clothes (after HOURS of walking around). Not alot but better than nothing (:

And it was more of the time spent with Lessie the cousin and my really epic Aunty Poh Wan (her laugh just KILLS ME okay!!!) and my Ahma who is so forgetful that it makes me laugh, yet makes me kinda sad.

Can't rmb alot of things alr (I think excessive food dumbs down your brain) but I just rmb talking alot with Les and it being nice to just spend a day away from technology (no free roaming haha!) other than watching MadTV and Silent Library together in the car :D

Watching Kina Grannis' old covers now, they're so prettyyyy (: I'm referring to her covers & voice, but yes she is too (:

Wanna go for class outing at WCP tomorrow but IT'S AT WEST COAST. So 1) It's really far 2) It'll take me a longLONG travel time 3) I dont think I can wake up cos it's 12.56am now and I just did an entire day of shopping 4) I have piano at an unconfirmed time 5) Logistically it won't really work out

So I doubt I'll be turning up tomorrow, SORRY CHWELF I STILL BIGLOVE Y'ALL~ Have tons of fun without me!!!!!!

K off to bed now. Wow rly quite exhausted. Still happy with my teeth. Flashed my megawatt smile at Lester like... 10 times today. Partly cos I really like my teeth now, and also because it annoyed him aft awhile and his annoyed face is really funny.

HAHA this is what cousins do to each other RIGHT JEANJIEJIE! :D Can't wait for you to come back and we'll go over to Marco and Lessie's house to watch a stupid movie, watch the stupid Twilight Spoof ("I WOULD NEVAR DO THAT TO YOU BELLA, EVAAAR~") and dance Dailamo!!! Haha lovvvve (:

2010-09-16T01:19:00.002+08:00

Ted's Best (Man) Friend, one of my fave retarded Wongfu shorts! Along with Picture Day, Hitting on Cathy and POSER! (:

It's styled like The Office (which is 1 reason why Marcus loves it alot) and according to Marcus, has abit of HIMYM type thing at the end.

Idk, I just love it cos it's so retarded.

And this is the official HQ version to replace the screamy shaky one that I posted awhile back (decided to delete that post btw). This one has no screaming teenage girls, no shaking, and an extended ending with CHRIS DINH :D Haha.

Wes is really so mad funny and retarded. Srsly. I've watched it like 10 times alr I think.... Hahaha.

"It is hot, but you're so cool."
"Wes Chan Wes Chan Best Chan Best Chan Best Man! BEST MAN."
"No Ted, I've seen MY iPad. Oh you want these too? These are free backrubs, not backstabs OHHH!"

Fangirl love ahahaha.

2010-09-15T23:07:00.005+08:00

WOOOOOOOTS EXAMS ARE OVER FOR NOW!!!!!!!!!

Okay so there's still Math in a couple of weeks, and HCL O levels. But I decided that I'm gonna take a break this week and start the revision next week! Srsly not used to 2 and a half weeks of straight mugging haha.

Thank God for bringing us through the exams and mad studyingggggggg (: I'm so glad the yucky stuff is over!

Thank God for wonderful friends like Hannah Joanne and Ding who keep smsing me to study (and not roll on my bed)! Thank God for smart and helpful friends like Rachel and Jaslyn for teaching me more Bio in 1 day than I'd learnt in the whole yr! (: And thank God for lovely friends like Deb Mone and Sab for lending me their notes and responding to all my noob smses (: LOVE Y'ALL~

So today to celebrate, Deb and I headed over to not-as-glam-as-Orchard-Road-but-not-as-overpopulated-with-RGS-girls Junction 8! Had Sakae Sushi (the debt for which I will pay back in installments), and then went to Bishan Library (: Because srsly there are NO movies to watch now unless you count... Cats and Dogs.

Same place I went with Wen Jaime Jas and Sab aft exams in Sec2 haha! And we sat at the exact spot and read celebrity gossip magazines and talked abt it for a complete hour. HAHA talk abt relieving our minds of thinking aft a hardcore mug day! And then we went up and borrowed alot of chicklit wheeeee~

In case you are not on FB or Twitter (are you under a rock???), I GOT MY BRACES OFF WOOHOOWOOHOOOOOO! (: I was so mega happy because I was not expecting it (come on, it's been postponed for 9 months) so yay! Couldn't stop looking at my teeth in the mirror everytime I went to the toilet hahaha.

So went for scaling and polishing today and now they are smooooth and nice and I'm kinda obsessed with them. HAHA gimme a couple more days to get over the fact that no food gets stuck, I dont have to break chips into pieces small enough to fit through my rubberbands, and I DONT HAVE TO WEAR RUBBERBANDS ON METAL ANYMORE (:

Because I had the bad habit of always playing with my rubberbands in my mouth (and causing them to break excessively), everytime I'm bored now or trying to sleep I suddenly feel a lack of rubberband in my mouth and have this instinct to stop what I'm doing and go put on my rubberbands! It's happened like more than 10 times alr.

Spent the rest of my day of freedom watching American Idol repeat telecasts with Ahma (lovelove), watching all of Wong Fu's videos that I've never seen before (like the tours!), watching Glee, and then watching more Wongfu (:

Hahaha I'm kind of a psycho, I know. But I just wish they would come to Singapore. I kept thinking of what I would make/say/write/give to them if they came. I wonder if my dream will ever come true.....

Anw, some of Wongfu's lame pickup lines from a fancam at one of their sessions (:

Phil: Are you a volcano? Because I'm in lava with you.

Ted: Just looking at you gives me diabetes................................................ You're so sweet.

Wes: Hi I'm Philip Wang. Do you wanna make a video together sometime?

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL SO RETARDED.

I seriously L-O-Led alot of times while watching their tour videos, and also just looked at Wes alot. Alot. Alot. I need to stop being obsessive, yknow? But srsly TEEHEE I'm such a fangirl (:

Okay let me give an example of my psychoness, at the risk of really portraying myself as.... well, a psycho fangirl.

Wes tweeted:

Was in the sun for a bit today for a few long games of Ultimate. Maybe a little burnt. Feels like I've been blushing for the last 8 hours :]

Immediate thoughts in my head:

1) I wonder what he looks like sunburnt... I wish he posted a twitpic.

2) I would probably blush like that if I ever met him.

3) Ohman I really wanna meet Wes.

4) I wish I could be in LA/Wongfu could come to Singapore!

5) Wes (:

Okay yes I'm sorry if that freaked you out but, now you know how my shallow superficial (ONLY SOMETIMES OKAY!) brain thinks. Hahaha.

Watching all their old tour videos made me happy that they've improved so much over the last couple of years. Like their video editing and camera quality and everything. They're still just as lame and retarded which is why I still watched all the not-so-good quality ones (:

Anik came in while I was watching Wongfu, pointed out Phil, and said he was more handsome. And she doesnt understand why I like Wes more. HAHA. I CANT BELIEVE PHIL HAS A GIRLFRIEND THO OHMAN I'M SO CURIOUS I WANNA SEE WHO IT ISSSS~

Okay so this is basically my catch-up post, since my past like... 5 posts have just been picspams/Wongfu vids due to time constraints (and my Wongfu love).To let you know what's been going on in my life (If anyone actually cares abt these mundane details......) and also so ROBOT TAGGERS WILL GO AWAY!!!!

And yes Tianyi tedmosebyisajerk and if you leave anymore robot tags, so are you! LOL JK~

Teehee so happy, gonna enjoy the rest of freedom week with my shiny, smooth and retainer-less teeth (for now)! (: Going to Malaysia with Ahma and co. for shopping and pigout~ Sad to not have Jeanjiejie or Marcus there, but I'll have Les. I hope it'll be fun :D

And then XIAOLONGBAOS WITH MA, J-DADDY, JEW AND TAUPOK QUEEN ON FRIDAY WOOOOTS so excited! (:

Kkkk can't think of anymore things I feel like saying, except that I'm proud of myself for writing abt Twitter in my english essay and for putting down the only statistic I remembered! Twitter receives 40 million tweets a day. Aw yeah.

Okay I shall make gifs/go to sleep now! BYE LOVELIES~

2010-09-11T13:05:00.004+08:00

Omgsh Papa just told me we're leaving now (going to youth) but I'm not done with Lit yet noooooooooo!!!

Ahhhhh okay okay okay gameplan!

Today:

Go to church early, reread Hedda Gabler, make notes on characters, write down quotes.

Meet Rachel, memorize Chem stuff, bombard her with Chem queries, finish Chem questions.

Tomorrow:

Do Lit notes + research for short stories

Memorize Lit quotes

MEMORIZE CHEM THINGS

Ohman I hope I can finish studying in time for Monday I FEEL UNPREPARED!!!

On the plus side, Mummy told me this was the first time she's seen me studying so hard L-O-L. It made me feel slightly happier (: And also it's less likely for her to whack me upside down if I dont do well this time...

Okay screenshots that I thought were rly cute:

Love following these people on Twitter and seeing their retarded conversations :D

OKAY I HOPE ALL WORKS OUT AHHHHHH~

Miss you very much blogger, H8 YOU ROBOT TAGGERS.

Come on, 5 days left!!!!!

2010-09-07T23:48:00.009+08:00

I couldnt resist.. SO CUTE! (:

And also, remember Picture Day? Where Creepy Wes holds a picture of Cathy's head...

I found this on FB! SO CUTE (:

For you Tianyi: CATHY NGUYEN :D

Wes and Cathy would really make a very cute couple (reminding me abt the WF Weekend where I rewatch Wes blush and smile and say "He was trying to steal..... a girl." like 20 times over)

Okay I havent been slacking around the whole day... Am almost done with History (gosh it took 2 whole days?!), went for piano, and just had a long talk with Mummy abt quitting piano. I think I'm really doing it.... Oh wow after 11 years of my life just getting through grade aft grade and nv really liking it, I can't believe I am actl possibly quitting. Haha. We'll see how it goes!

Thanks, DJ (:

OKAY OFF TO FINISH HISTORY~ I guess I wont do Chem tonight. TMR! I will do Chem and hopefully Lit (: Will save Bio for Friday where I will spend my ENTIRE DAY DEVOTING MYSELF TO TRANSCRIPTION AND TRANSLATION AND WHATNOT~

My sentiments exactly.

Bb!

2010-09-01T22:15:00.006+08:00

Okay I said I wasn't gonna blog today but NEW WONGFU SHORT!!!!!!!!!!!!

For the American Cancer Society to get people to stop smoking (: IT'S SO FUNNY SRSLY DAVID CHOI AND CHRIS DINH ARE HILARIOUS. David really cracked me up and everytime he appeared, Chris' expressions were superfunny!

DAVID CHOI IN A SPAGHETTI STRAP/DRESS/BIKINI, COME ON. You can't not watch it! Hahahaha.

And in case you're a DChoi/Wongfu fan, you can watch the bloopers here :D Really really funny! And the whole plot/cast concept too (:. http://wongfuproductions.com/2010/08/new-short-the-allergy-outtakes/

Hahaha thankyou Jeanjiejie for calling me all the way from Perth to tell me there was a new short today (: So sad that Chris Dinh actl smokes in real life! TSKKK somemore got tattoo eh Jeanjiejie. Dont care abt his sessie voice anymore la hor? Hahaha.

AHHH CHINESE TOMORROW okay I'm sorta somewhat done with my notes but I wasn't v productive today cos I watched Princess Diaries and fell asleep while doing Chinese ahhhh.

I hope it goes okay, I never feel thoroughly prepared for Chinese ever. You never know how it's gonna turn out.

Ahwell. Going for Edmund Chan's Intentional Discipleship Making Conference tomorrow!!! Quite excited (: But that means I gotta finish studying for Philo wayyy earlier cos the session is in the evening.

MOTIVATION!

Teehee okay Double Rainbow Song is stuck in my head furreeeeal esp the part where he goes WAH WAHHH in autotune ohman I hope it's gone by tmr or I will go crazy during the 4 hours of Chinese!!!

2010-09-01T00:40:00.009+08:00

Asian American PICSPAM!

Thanks to my new discoveries: channelapa.com and aatheory.com :D

Wongfu, David Choi, Kina Grannis, Nigahiga, Kevjumba (+ PapaJumba) and Communitychannel wheee~

Realised I've been subscribed to Kevjumba since he first started on Youtube! Been watching him since Sec1... Hahaha Erjie and I literally watched him shoot to fame from obscurity :D I think he was my first youtube subscription ever. Wow how we have progressed since then....

YAY FOR PICSPAM! (: Sorry if it doesn't show up on your comp/makes your comp lag ahahaha.

NO BLOGGING TMR, SO SEE YOU NOT-SO-SOON ):

2010-08-31T22:19:00.007+08:00

AHHHHHHHHH TEEHEEEEEEE I can't help it really. WES IS SO CUTE (: And I have a photo of me doing the same pose in my WongFu shirt HEHE :D

Found this from his profile pictures. No idea why I've nv seen them before, I thought I had stalked his profile pretty extensively (I even found and went through his flickr acc okay!). So glad that there is always more to see! (: I wonder if I'll ever finish looking through his 4000plus photos. Ahahaha a task for the Super Stalker Fangirl during post-exams!

There are some other nice Wes ones, but I may post them another day. Cos this one is just really cute :D

Yknow two 16 yr olds auditioned for the ChildAid Concert doing an acoustic performance of DANCE TO THIS SONG! Wooohooooo Straits Times mentioned "Youtube sensations: Wong Fu Productions, Kevjumba and David Choi". :D

Aces today was retarded but fun cos all I could sing was WE GON FIIIND YOU WE GON FIIIND YOU and then we just kept subtly sidestepping so we could gather for a class photo hahaha. I love Chwelf, somehow we always take photos on the field when we're supposed to be doing smth else (emergency exercise haha).

The Teachers/Students skit for the teachers' day concert was kinda epic hahaha MOng being gross (but rly good), Mr E doing what he does best (CROSSDRESSAAA), Ms Tay being a super convincing paikia (and looking pretty) and Miss Wong being the geek HAHAHAHAHA I turned to Joelle halfway and we both cracked up so bad.

It was really funny though kinda disturbing is many ways. Hahaha.

Class Party was such Fail Fun hahaha cos our speakers + comp are both spoilt so we had NO COOL CLUBBING MUSIC and Debo and I tried the strobe light but it was just too retarded, we had to make our own techno music (as in sing it). Hahaha. Got the teachers to do some dumb stuff, ate good nice food (no more kindergarten nightmare!), and mainly just asked the teachers alot of questions and got them to tell us their life/lovestories. It was nice and calm and very enlightening hahahaha.

Can't believe it's our last teachers' day in RG.... kinda weird to think abt it.

Ah well. I had a nice nap this aftn, watched Top Chef, did some Chem and now I shall embark on Chinese till I fall asleep! STUDY DAY TMR. I really must stop procrastinating. Exco10 on twitter always makes me feel Shi Bai because they're all so hardworking and I'm not haha.

MISS LING WENT TO WATCH DAVID CHOI @ TIMBRE TOO I DONT KNOW WHY I'M SHOCKED BUT I AM. SHE IS JUST 2 COOL 4 SCHOOL. PICTURES WITH WONG FU AND WITH VICTOR KIM?! Cool beyond belief hahaha wheeeee I can't wait to go back for Shirim so I can see if Miss Ling is capable of fangirling despite her very calm exterior :D

2010-08-30T23:04:00.002+08:00

Oh em gee this is killing me hahahahahaha.

HID YO KIDS HIDE YO WIFE
WE GON FIIIIIND YOU WE GON FIIIIIIND YOU
SO YOU CAN RUN AND TELL THAT
HOMEBOY HOME HOME HOMEBOY

Hahahahahaha this is so mad catchy, beens singing it in Debo and Sabby's FAYCE all day long! Hahahah while we were baking youtubing ituning emailing and at every other moment. HIDE YO KIDS HIDE YO WIFE~

AND THEN!

Through a long period of self-discipline faaaaail (I'm giving myself a break today since it's teachers day tmr.... OKAY I WILL BE GOOD TMR AND WED I PROMISE) where I watched SO MUCH WONGFU, I somehow stumbled across this song, wich also happens to be from the same user who autotunes the Bed Intruder song!

First off, I gotta say that the double rainbow is srsly super cool. Hahaha. But this dude is really high or smth!

DOUBLE RAINBOW ALL THE WAY ACROSS THE SKYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY~

Not as funny but still, PRETTY GOOD. Such a song from autotune. Hahahaha.

2010-08-30T20:11:00.001+08:00

Finally, one where I can hear what he's saying! It's still just as sweet ahhhhh I've watched him propose about like 10 times and I still feel like screaming a little for him everytime I see it (: GO TED!!!!

Oh and I realised her name is Caty. Haha.

2010-08-29T23:15:00.004+08:00

TED'S FIANCÉES NAME IS KATIE.

Why is everyone's girlfriend/fiancee/wife called that??

Hahahaha Kris has Katy, Cale has Kate, and now Ted has Katie (:

I should change my name to Kate.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA kidding.

Middle name? (:

P.S Dajie: Jeanjiejie suggests that you marry either one of the 2 remaining singles from Wongfu (WES or phil) so that we can be related to Wongfu. Hahahahaha please dont kill us. ANDDDD we just realised that Wongfu is in the same city as you now, DJ! :D Therefore in our little Singaporean minds, we feel it is entirely possible that you meet them. SO COOL (:

#TEEHEE

2010-08-29T14:01:00.009+08:00

Okay firstly, Shee and I made a bigger cameo in David Choi In Singapore 7!!!!!! With our fangirl sign and all wheeehehehehehe :D

Secondly, this:
TEEHEE :D

Thirdly, this is all over my twitter and facebook already but who cares cos TED PROPOSED TO HIS GIRLFRIEND AT ISA NEWYORK IN FRONT OF LIKE 1200 SCREAMING FANS OMG SUPER CUTE SRSLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He got down on one knee and everything!!! SO SWEET :D AND TED IS JUST SRSLY TOO CUTE.

Only 1 video of it on Youtube so far, and you cant hear anything he's saying cos everyone is just screaming insanely (I would ttly be going crazy if I were there too) but AHHHHH SRSLY CUE FANGIRL FLAIL HAHA.

edit// You can hear Ted speaking for abit, but still... insane screaming (: YOU CAN SEE PHIL CRYING AT THE SIDE AWWWWWW. And he and Wes mad cheering when Ted proposes (:

When they hug it's sooooooo cute and it ttly reminds me of him hugging Spencer in Give and Take ahahahahaha. For the gazillionth and final time, TOO CUTE FOR WORDS :D :D :D

How am I supposed to study??????

Okay I'm kidding I was happily studying just now till I went on twitter and saw all the updates and just freeeeeaked out hahaha didnt think that Ted would be the kind to propose in front of a crowd but WAO :D

So happy for Ted! I am hoping for and trying to imagine a WONGFU WEDDING omgsh that would be so epic ahahahahahaha wheeee~

Kkkkkkk back to SS and I will work hard so that I can guilt-freely watch the full ISA footage on Youtube aft exams! (: (: (:

2010-08-27T00:40:00.002+08:00

Am getting distracteddddddddddddddddddddddd and tireddddddddddddddddddd and still got so much Lit to write. COME ON DIANE FOCUSSSSS.

I'm looking forward to the holidays alr!!!! Wish I could go and visit you Jeanjiejie!!!! I like that photo alot hahah.

2010-08-26T23:36:00.004+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA talking to Ms Chow-Dish who has MSN now (SO COOL AND HIP) and decided to ask for help with Lit. These are the results:

I literally ROFL-ed!!!!!!! Jo Jie I wish you'd come teach me Lit!!! Hahahahaha.

Okay back to trying to figure out what to write....

2010-08-25T15:36:00.003+08:00

Teeeheeeheeeheeheeeeee this makes me so happy (: (: (:

Anik thinks he is very cute! So do I :D Hahaha.

And I'm actually quite proud of myself because even though I am totally not a famewhore (really, I just like famous people), I made a cameo appearance on David Choi In Singapore Part 4 and 5!!!

Hahahaha and in The New Paper article about David Choi (which was exactly what my SS PT was abt!!!), Marcus Shiren and I are pixels in the background! Haha!

Anw omg so exciting I'm uploading the videos of us meeting/dancing with David Choi now, I just watched the one where we asked him to do the dance of us and HE WAS SO NICE!!!

He actl said, "You can take as many photos as you want" SHEE WHY DIDNT WE TAKE MORE??? Hahahahaha. And he so readily agreed to do the dance AHHH hehe makes me happy watching it (:

He is so epic cute srsly, even if Shee and I are grinning like idiots when we were doing The David Choi (:

And I went to rewatch the episodes of Funemployed with David Choi, like the one of him crying and playing Taylor Swift on the piano with kids, SO RETARDED I LOVE IT~

Kkkkk I need to go NAO BYE~

2010-08-24T21:46:00.005+08:00

Currently obsessed with this song, been singing it for the past 2 days!!! His opening monologue here is really cute haha (:

Writing my info for my testimonial now, sighhhh how I wish I could list down Professional Hardcore Fangirl as one of my achievements!!!!! My academic achievements are currently blank. Ah well.

Personal achievements/milestones:

1. Almost touched kris allen.

2. Hugged/danced with/grabbed/took photo with david choi

3. Watched all of Wongfu's videos

Hahahahaha. Okay I gotta finish this testimonial thing then do my SS FA!!!

Last screenshot of Ted looking extremely cute (reminds me of a teddy bear actually)

"You must be a level 100 to wear this. All you noobs must not apply."

Seriously, I'm pretty good at daydreaming. I've been imagining what it might be like if Wongfu ever comes to Singapore (:

Today in SS, Mr Chew was talking about globalisation:

Mr Chew: In 6 years time, where will all of you be? MNCs right?

*Shiren and I exchange a look*

Me: Nope, in 6 years time Shiren and I will be on Youtube (:

HAHAHA this is making me think of U-tube.

Hahaha okay WILL TRY TO BE SERIOUS AND PROMOTE MYSELF NOW BYE~

2010-08-22T23:13:00.003+08:00

So we've come to the end of our 3 day long David Choi Weekend and I have to say, it was really fantastic :D SERIOUSLY, Shiren and I got the maximum David Choi experience and accomplished so much as fangirls! YAYYYY LOVE YOU SHEE (:

Had to cab down to Baybeats on Saturday because we ended Youth late, and we literally ran through esplanade to get to where he was playing. There was a huge crowd and we couldn't see him at all. Sometime while we were trying to find a good spot, he said:

"To all you people at the back who can't see, I feel your pain."

Hahahaha he's really so small!!!

Anw we lodged ourselves somewhere in the crowd and basically watched his entire segment through some girl's camera screen (: At least we could hear him! The atmosphere around us wasn't that great though, people werent really singing or anything until the end.

BUT DAVID'S VOICE LIVE IS REALLY SO NICE (: And we screamed everytime he mentioned Wongfu :D :D :D He stood on the chair to do the David Choi dance but we could barely see! Until like the last 10min of the performance then we finally caught a glimpse of him (:

So anyway we were just standing there in the crowd, and suddenly. The police dude walks through, shoving me along with many other people, saying: EXCUSE ME PLEASE STEP BACK STEP BACK CLEAR THE WAY PLEASE" and

OH EM GEE WE END UP RIGHT AT THE FRONT OF THE AISLE HE JUST CLEARED FOR DAVID TO WALK OUT.

It's super funny because everyone sorta shrieks (me especially) and is frantically searching for their cameras and I start recording on mine (Hannah's), then suddenly realise that I'm holding my phone and camera pouch in my other hand and WHAT IF I GET TO TOUCH HIM? so I shove it to Shiren and go "TAKE IT TAKE IT JUST PUT IN YOUR BAG QUICK TAKE!" hahahaha I think you can hear it in the video...

So he walks through, I FREAK OUT AND SCREAM (so does Shiren and everyone else in the crowd) and he comes right in my face and smiles at me while recording me recording him and says "thank you" to thank me (rabid fan) for coming out to see him and he's like right in front of my face SERIOUSLY and I cant help it so I just grab his arm and scream DAVID!!!!!!!

Hahahaha it's kinda psycho I guess but he didn't even notice cos it was soooo crowded and noisy but he was so close I couldn't resist hahahaha. DONT JUDGE ME. Hehe. Some lucky people snag photos with him but we dont manage to. Ah well.

Fast forward to today: David Choi Youtube Workshop at Timbre!!!!!

Meet Marcus' friends without Marcus (kinda awkward) and Shiren there, head to the front cos we have priority queue! So we settle down at one of the tables and just have our own conversations for abt 10min until Nicholas suddenly says: DAVID CHOI IS RIGHT THERE. BEHIND YOU.

I look around and as usual, I see no sign of David Choi so I thought he was scamming............ until I look to the next table. And realise. THERE HE IS. Among his crew +Timbre people discussing some work stuff about the show I think.

PROCEED TO FREAK OUT INTERNALLY. We wanna go over to ask for a photo, but they look kinda busy. So we dont. They all walk away in the other direction to prepare for the show so no photo ):

Anyway, more waiting. Shiren made a sign with big block letters that said DAVID WE'RE NOT GOING HOME WITHOUT A PHOTO WITH YOU, complete with a pic of him and a camera :D We stone around abit more, Marcus comes, lalala nothing happens UNTIL...

We look up and there he is looking down from the roof! Not alot of people notice I think, so I beam and wave and he waves back and smiles!!!!! :D Happiness alert. I lift up our poster to him and he does the cutest thing: He abruptly stop smiling, squints his tiny eyes and leans forward, trying to read the sign, and after awhile, he finally nods in understanding and gives me the OK handsign with a smile.

AHHHHHH SO CUTE HAHAHAHA SRSLY.

The show starts, Sara and the other head instructor at Timbre sing Need You Now by Lady Antebellum and it's reeeeeeeeeally good! Shucks wish I had recorded it haha. Then David comes on and he sings a Youtube Lovesong which was like the first song he ever sang on Youtube. It's actually really nice! And he wrote it in like 20 min or smth haha.

He goes on to talk abt alot of stuff related to Youtube and his career and srsly Shiren we are SO GIVING THIS CAREER A SHOT AFTER OUR EXAMS FOR REAL! Then he reveals the finalists of the cover contest and the winner! This guy called Moses, who goes up to sing with David. It is soooooo nice :D I shall go find Moses on youtube! Seriously his voice is quite nice (:

And David sings My Time With You with Sara and I LOVE THIS SONG ALOT so it made me really really happy! He answers some questions and I have a video Sara asking him if he's single.

"I can't really answer that.... Maybe I'm single?"

HAHA and he goes on to talk about how Singapore has alot of talent and is really good looking :D :D :D Sometime during the show, a Straits Times photographer walks past our table and sees our sign. He asks us to pose with it and takes David Choi in the background. So it is also a possibility that this shameless fangirling may land us in the newspaper. WOOHOOO~

So at the end of the show they say that there will be an autograph signing/photo taking SO THIS IS OUR CHANCE but we end up very far back in the queue, so we wait forever, sweating in Singapore's humidity, planning our gameplan. IT WAS A GOOD PLAN.

Marcus and friends steal the big poster from the pillar in Timbre and ask David to sign it.

"Pauline": Wow how did you print it so big??

Nicholas: Uhhh actually we took it from over there....

David Choi: YOU THIEVES!

Hahahaha it's really funny :D I help them take a photo and then it comes to Shiren and I! We give him our sign with our letter of love at the back and he says thankyou and tells us that it's going on his video (I HOPE HE MEANS IT I REALLY DO) and then we tell him that we had all our stuff autographed on Friday alr so we ask him if he could do us another favour: Do the David Choi Dance with us.

HAHA IT IS SO EPIC SRSLY! He agrees and gets up from his chair and the 3 of us just do the dance while he counts down from 10! He touches me (I dont mean it like how it sounds) when he tells me to be careful of this huge metal fan next to me because I could get killed (I'm secretly dying inside anw hahaha) We get the whole dance on video and tell him that it's going to kickstart our youtube careers! And he high-tens both of us once it's done (: AHHHHHHHH (: (: (:

So we finally get our photo with him (PROFILE PICTURE WITH IMMEDIATE EFFECT) and then we say bye (:

And that's the end of our David Choi Weekend Experience. AHHHH we really got everything we could've possibly hoped for :D

I know people just think we're being crazy cos who is this David Choi dude anyway and what's so good about a guy who is 163cm? BUT I DONT CARE. WE DONT CARE. Hahahaha I guess you just gotta be a fan and Youtube junkie to get it (: WATCHING HIM ON YOUTUBE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN~~~~~

We got 3 signed photos of him, 2 signed CDs, 1 signed polaroid, a photo with him, a video of us doing The David Choi Dance with David Choi (: We got to talk to him, give him hellopanda and merlions, hug him, grab him and dance with him (:

What more could I ask for? WE ARE SRSLY THE BEST FANGIRLS EVER. THIS WAS THE MAXIMUM EXPERIENCE TTM!

WONGFU NIGAHIGA KEVJUMBA PLEEEEASE COME TO SINGAPORE :D :D :D :D

Ahhh hehehe I superlove Shiren's lj post, thankyou for being so willing to be a shameless fangirl with me! I'm so happy about how everything turned out :D

I'm sad that The David Choi Weekend had to come to an end, but ohwell. I will now be good and reward Mummy for letting me go all 3 days by studying really hard for my EOYs (:

Lastly, I AM ANXIOUSLY AWAITING DAVID'S NEW VIDEOS TO SEE IF SHIREN AND I ARE FEATURED :D :D :D :D :D

2010-08-21T00:59:00.007+08:00

It's almost 1am, I'm really sleepy from the post-high and I really should be sleeping but I'm going to try to capture as many details as possible in case my memory fails me.

OH EM GEE I CANT BELIEVE I ACTUALLY MET DAVID CHOI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's so mad I still dont even believe it's real!!! Haha okay you might not get it, cos I mean he's not super famous... except he is. Haha imagine meeting the dude from Youtube videos I watch every other day and whose songs I listen to on loop. THE GUY FROM FUNEMPLOYED, THE GUY ON THE DANCE TO THIE SONG VIDEO (which I've watched over and over) IN THE FLESH!!!

Okay rushed down from piano which ended totally late, and today just happened to be the day where everything goes wrong when you're rushing for time. EZ link out of money, YOG card needs some funny code, train doors jam sorta at Toa Payoh, handphone suddenly can't send smses, stuck in peak hour crowd, escalators crowded, lift stops at practically every level.

But in some mysterious way that this day unfolded, I somehow managed to get into the priority queue to meet SHEESHEE even though I didnt have the HMV receipt and all. Yay (: Waited long, as expected, listening to the 2 retarded guys behind us talk rubbish, writing our note to David (P.S SAY HI TO WONGFU THANKS), putting our present together (merlion keychain + hello panda!!!) and planning our game plan.

Everyone gets scammed by the automated David Choi message that comes on every 2 songs, but the atmosphere is pretty nice cos it's not squeezy and the songs are calming :D

Someone screams, I assume it's a false alarm cos I dont really see anyone...... until I realise that it's David Choi. PROCEED WITH SCREAMING AND CHEERING AND BEAMING AND OMG-ING :D

Continue planning a good strategy all the way down the line, start taking photos of him as we approach closer, watch him sign a couple of guitars (y), take a polaroid when my view of him isn't blocked.

AND THEN WE REACH HIM.

Omgsh my heart was really pounding out of its chest srsly I could feel it and we could've prob taken more photos cos we were so close to him except Shee and I went into Full Fangirl Mode, meaning we just turned to jelly and lost all human function till it came to our turn!

We spread out our 3 A4 size pictures of him on the table, the 2 David Choi albums, and my 1 polaroid, beaming madly. And then we excitedly point to our shirts and proclaim: WONGFU SHIRTS! (: David and the dude who came with him from Cali (bodyguard-turned-videographer I guess) laugh at us and records us :D

He takes our present, says THANKS SO MUCH GUYS (:, sees our note written on the back of a photo of him doing a tweeees pose (typical korean pose), looks up at us and does the same thing. I ALMOST FAINT COS IT'S SO CUTE.

David Choi is like soooooo much nicer than I expected cos he usually is kinda monotonous in his Youtube vids and all, but he was so friendly to us!!! And I just rambled on, as I do excessively when I'm nervous/excited, and we got him to sign ALL THE STUFF :D :D :D

Not only was it autographed, but it was personalised to us!!!! Marcus ttly owes me for helping him get a personalised picture + a "Thanks for pre-ordering!! You rock!!" on his pre-ordered album :D :D :D

He talks to us while he's autographing, and I sneak him my polaroid and sheepishly ask him to sign it even though we're totally holding up the queue (I remembered Debo's advice: JUST BE SHAMELESS, DONT CARE). He looks at it and says: "Well this looks familiar..." HAHA SO CUTE~ Anw he signs it and adds a :) WHICH MAKES ME SO HAPPY.

He tells Shiren her name is so interesting cos at first he thought it was a variation of Sharon, till we told him it was Chinese. Hahah. He smiles like a gazillion times. Shiren and I grinned like idiots the entire way through. He's signed all our stuff, and Shiren's about to leave until I remember 1 important thing:

"David can we have a hug?"
"Of course!"

AND HE HUGS US BOTH. OMG. SERIOUSLY. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

HE WAS SO NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I heart NGs!!!!!

Shiren and I then walk a couple metres away and proceed to scream/flail/shriek/jump about because DAVID CHOI JUST HUGGED ME OMGSH SRSLY!!! Hahahahahah ahhhhh thinking about it makes me happy alr :D Who cares if people looked at us weird, IT DOESNT MATTER~

Hahahaha I really hope we get put into his Singapore video but ah well, we'll see (:

We basically spend the rest of the night freaking out about how we'd just met David Choi and just hugged him and just gotten his autograph, and then call Debo (#2 fangirl) and Karen (#1 fangirl) to share our epic fangirl adventure and share our euphoria!

Ahhhh yay yay yay yay yay today (technically yesterday - 20 August) was such a good and nice and happy day :D I'm so happy Mum allowed me to go, and that Shiren was well enough to go too!!! I HUGGED DAVID CHOI AHH.

So so so so so epic, my first autograph session ever. THE FEELING IS MAD. Hahahaha I'm such a hopeless fangirl but NEVERMIND FOR NOW, David Choi weekend is underway! Watching him at Baybeats on Sat, and then Youtube workshop on Sunday!!! WOOHOO :D

I luvluvluvluvluvluvluv u Sheeshee you are the besssssst! So glad we got to meet David Choi together and fangirl like we do all the time, except this time IN PERSON :D

If Wongfu ever comes to Singapore and I get to meet them/get their autographs/take a picture with them, my excitement and happiness will be this x1000000 :D

WONGFU COME TO SINGAPORE PLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEASE.

Haha okay gtg sleep now, Youth tomorrow yay!!! This weekend is gonna be goooood (:

2010-08-17T23:17:00.003+08:00

Thanks to Amelia, I've discovered heckyeahkrisallen.tumblr.com (talk abt bad timing and extreme distractions) and to summarise everything I'm thinking about now (while trying to do my SS and proceed on to English):

Who knows how it'll go? I'm just gonna trust God. Thank You God for caring friends (:

fullofsparkles hehehehe.

2010-08-16T19:26:00.002+08:00

Whoosh almost done with all of HBL (sigh I can't believe it practically took a whole day.. Obv I'm more productive in school) except for Lit but I gotta wait for the groupmates to do that together!

And also SS (which is unfair cos we dont have SS on Mondays), which I gotta wait for Deb/Mone sorta. Okay actl maybe I should write it now...

But I'm supposed to finish my English essay by tmr too! Sigh. SO MUCH TO DO. Havent even gotten around to that History essay and SBQ, which is due later in the week.

Havent studied Bio, havent finished reading History notes, and I think I have a Math GA tmr.

AHHHHHHH I guess this is the part abt being Sec4 in RGS that everyone hates. 2 weeks to EOYs I can't believe it I may just go into fullout panic mode. Tsk....... so tempted to come home straight on Wed to get to studying but I'll feel bad pangseh-ing the SSC and Shirim againnnnn. Eh Boss, take a 2 week break? :S

But okay *deep breath* I will not panic. I will learn to focus. I will learn to be disciplined. I will learn to commit everything to God. I will not fear.

Okay. I can do this. I can.

SS (Ohgosh I'm thinking of harbours) FA NAO.

2010-08-16T09:13:00.003+08:00

I'm being stupid and unrealistic, but secretly I wish my boyfriend would do this for me! HAHA always wanted someone to write a song for me and serenade me~ AND RAP FOR ME HAHAHA.

But ahhh hehe I rmb Hannah and me swoooooning like crazy when we first saw the episode! Maybe it's just because it's Nick Jonas :D (Nicole Anderson is so pretty!)

K HBL AWAITS~

2010-08-16T00:35:00.005+08:00

Dajie told me about how I looked like Chunli when I was young and so I finally got around to scanning in the photos and looking at old photos is fun!!!

Hahaha I was such a cute kid. But yknow... This place is public and I dont really know who's ~lurking~ around so I'll just post one photo (: The one where I look the cutest haha!!

COOKING MAMA~~~~~~ Hahahahaha.

Okay I cant help it I'm gonna post the one where Jeanjiejie looks like Chunli SHE'S SO CUTE~ (And my expression is quite epic...)

There're so many happy photos of me with my sisters and alot of them posing with me when I was a baby hahahah I bet I was treated like a doll/soft toy (There is actually one photo of me sitting in a line of like, 10 soft toys)

Yay looking at old photos makes me happy!!! Kkk off to read my SS/history notes till I fall asleep. I WILL BE PRODUCTIVE TOMORROW. I WILL.

At least I printed all my Bio ppts.. That counts for something right?

2010-08-15T15:25:00.003+08:00

Before I forget, Happy Birthday Joe Jonas!!!!!

For all the good camp rock times and for being my celebrity crush for one year. Hahahahahaha.

In other fangirl news, DAVID CHOI IS FLYING TO SINGAPORE TODAYYYYYYYYY (: But I think he's only reaching on the 17th or smth cos of LONG FLIGHT + time difference. So excited to see him next week hehehehehe thankfully Mummy was very okay with me going when I asked her yst (:

Ahhhh Shee is right, HBL just lulls us into a false sense of freedom and time because THERE IS SO MUCH TO DO AND SO MANY ESSAYS TO WRITE AHHH ITS CRAZAYYYYE. I wanna go and sleep. So tired from everything haha.

YOG opening ceremony was v nice yst!!!! I took crazy load of photos until my noobstyle camera ran out of battery hahaha. Except the annoying thing abt sitting in the VIP section is that the people there are old and unenthu. SRSLY!!!! Me and Mum were the only ones screaming and waving our flags hahaha.

Steve Appleton is handsome (: But I'm sure everyone alr knows that!

So proud of Singapore really (: (: (: (: (: Esp the part where the Singapore flag came in, whoa the whole stadium was on its feet and clapping (even the old unenthu people) It made me so proud to be a Singaporean!!!! And I'm determined to catch as much of the YOG as I possibly can (: ONCE IN A LIFETIME MAN~

Okay I think I'm gonna take a nap and hopefully be productive today. I WILL.

Oh and here's my question to everyone (It's too long to be in 1 tweet!)

Was I the only disney geek to notice that the music they played at YOG opening ceremony yst during the marching in of all the different flags was One World by The Cheetah Girls?

Haha k byeeeeee~

2010-08-14T01:50:00.002+08:00

Me: Hi Mum, how was Salt?

Mummy: Oh it was very good. Ya, very good. Except I slept throughout.

?!?!?!?!?!?! HAHAHAHA MUMMY ROCKS LA SRSLY. I was just ROFLING hahaha.

Anw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANNAH IT'S ALMOST 2AM AND I'M WRITING YOUR CARD I HOPE YOU LIKE IT :D

I think I may continue writing tmr (: But AHHH what if I oversleep. Haha. I'm tired. Thankfully I had a 4 hr nap this aftn (:

I rewatched Just A Nice Guy and AHHHHHH SO SWEET~~~~~

Cant stand it!!!

K BYE (:

2010-08-13T00:12:00.003+08:00

Seeing idiots hurt the people I love make me very very very very very very very angry.

Seriously.

How dare you bully her, how dare you make her cry, HOW DARE YOU TAKE ADVANTAGE OF HER NICENESS. Ugh I wish I could just fly over there now and give you a piece of my mind. I just wanna give you a hard kick and knock you over your head.

Stupid people who are supposed to be relatives, supposed to be cell members, supposed to be friends. Even I treat my friends better than this, let alone my family. You have made me very extremely angry. Stop bullying my sister. STOP IT NOW.

Our whole family is extremely pissed off and I feel bad for having such thoughts but I AM FEELING SO INDIGNANT. Stop being such a douchebag, stop making my sister miserable and stop hurting her. I srsly can't take it lying down.

AHHHH.

Cheer up okay, Jeanjiejie? I love you alot alot alot alot alot alot alot (x100) and we're all praying for you to be able to find a house so that you can move out and be rid of all this rubbish. You're really too nice (and that's something I admire), don't let them walk all over you! I know it's easier said than done, but I'm sure you'll find a way around it.

STAND FIRM! I so wish I could be with you now to fight him for you so he won't take it out on you, but all I can do is say that you'll forever have my support and feel free to rant anytime okay?

Here's something that'll hopefully make you feel better:

Haha sorry I can't find many good ones but, DINH! (:

I love you Jeanjiejie ♥

2010-08-10T22:04:00.003+08:00

New Wongfu pic teehee (:

It feels strange to not be going for GB tomorrow.... Ah well I guess I'll just have to get used to it ): Dont think I'll be going for Shirim/SSC either, Mum won't let cos I'm sick. Tomorrow will be an empty day void of craziness ): Have fun without me y'all~

ALRIGHT GNIGHT FORREAl.

2010-08-10T20:59:00.004+08:00

Leaders Retreat was.. WHOA. I dont even know how to begin describing it. God really moved in such a great way and it was just so impactful. I felt God speaking to me so much throughout the 4 days, and all the messages from Pastor Joyce (who is really !!! good) really just cut straight through to me.

It was such a refreshing time (: (: (: (: (: (: I'm changed, and I hope it lasts!!!! Dont ever want to go back to what I was, just gonna keep moving forward :D

There was so much of the Holy Spirit moving among us, and I just let go and cried out to God so much. The last night was when I started to experience the Joy of God, haha it was strange smiling uncontrollably while crying. But srsly, the peace of God just flooded my heart and I couldn't help it (:

"I may seem like a fool, but I'll be a fool for God"

This line just resonated within me (:

Not to mention the epic fun we had during the retreat, esp with Mama Jo, Jew-di and Tiara Ninja Warrior aka Taupok Queen! FAMILY OUTING~ HAHAHAHA so many good times of taupoking, playing jungle speed and talking a whole load of rubbish using the new words we learnt.

HORAIE YOR OR NEED SOME PIANGING YOR AR. S I A M and D I A M, DONT PMO! And Tiara's turn out all the lights song everytime she turned off the lights hahahaahha.

Alright I think I'm gonna post photos then rly gonna sleep early because I'm not feeling well - voice is sounding manlier (reminds me of the convo I had with Jon abt how I'm manlier than Linqi and nv gonna be able to find a boyfriend!!!) because of my sore throat, my nose and ears are blocked, and my head feels clogged up. Grosssssssss.

I feel bad for not getting any work done, but nahhh I wouldn't have traded Leaders Retreat for anything! BYE GUYZ~

2010-08-05T23:26:00.002+08:00

CANT WAIT TO OWN WESNY AND HUG HIM TO SLEEP EVERY NIGHT :D Together with Kris (my purple carebear from Debo) and Donut (from taka toy sale - I need a real name!)

Hahahaha I feel so childish.

Anw I was so so so tired today I actl enjoyed the bus ride because of the nap time, and then I proceeded to nap again once I came home. I slept all the way from 6.30pm to................. 10pm.

NOW I GOTTA STAY UP TO DO LIT AA ): But at least I sorta know what's going on, and I have a good idea of what to write, so yay! So glad we managed to finish our model (Both Selina and Lit hehe) today (:

I GOT MY REVENGE ON YENSIANG.

Okay I'm kidding la I'm not rly angry at you okay? Hahahah please dont take me too seriously (Even though I know you ttly dont at all hahaha)

Fun with Rofl-ing Rachel yst on msn/twitter hahahaheheeh I shall not say anything more.

OKAY OFF TO DO LIT AA I HOPE I WILL BE PRODUCTIVE TMR I WILL LIVE MY LIFE TO THE EXTREME AND THEN YAYYYYYYY LEADERS RETREAT OVER THE LONG WEEKEND~

2010-08-04T22:31:00.004+08:00

Hahahahaha this made me laugh alot (: But I guess you have to be a Wongfu fan/get the context of this to find it funny. Talking about Wongfu with Jeanjiejie who is in Perth is super fun! Pointing out all the funny stupid moments in DANCE TO THIS SONG~

Seeing Wes be serious in his glasses and director mode is soooooooooooo cute srsly hehehehehe. I've been watching too much Wongfu and not doing enough Lit AA!!!!!!! Shall go do my yilunwen and sleep earlyish then chiong Lit AA tmr since I have to see the set anw haha.

Today:

I cried in front of my doctor and nurse and Mummy. Dang it. Cried a couple of times about it alr, but it's not that serious I guess. Just gotta keep praying that I'll make the right choice, and it'll miraculously get better.

Anyway, had to miss the whole of school today since I was late for my appointment. Sorry I didnt get to help during CLE!!!!!!! Made it back in time for Special Event ahhhh I guess it's really our last time with y'all ): Had very subdued fun talking with the cute monkeys, I will never forget Maple's exclamation:

HARH??? BUT WHY NOT MS WONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahahahahahahah Maple Khoo really rocks my socks! She ttly perked up and went crazy when she heard Rachel and I talking to Chas and Ju abt COMBINED PRACTICE. Hahahahaha.

And we ended everything with our real last vesper. Love ya batch10 exco (:

More screenshots to end :D

Jeanjiejie first looking retarded, and then dancing with her new bear!

This was the process we went through to name him:

After Chris Dinh (one of Wongfu's friends - Shee's sneezing guy!!) Jeanjiejie likes him and thinks he is very handsome. DINH IS A GREAT NAME (:

Screenshot from long ago, of Marcus looking very happy with his autographed David Choi album WHICH I HAVE YET TO BORROW!!! It's hard to get Marcus smiling in a picture haha.

Hahahahahahahaha Jeanjiejie you rock la.

ALRIGHT BYE GUYZ~

2010-08-03T23:28:00.002+08:00

Teeheehee the Dance To This Song MV is finally up!!! IT'S SO CUTE :D And I still think the song is mad catchy haha. WONGFU + KEVJUMBA + DAVIDCHOI FTW!!!

And the behind the scenes were like the best (y) Seeing Wes directs makes my heart go aflutter! HAHA. Sorta. Hehehe as some of my juniors wrote to me, "Some of my ex-batchmates say your blog is very bimbotic......"

I DONCH CARE I LUV WES :D And all their mad dancing in the video haha! THE DAVID CHOI DANCE IS STILL THE BEST THOUGH. Shee we ttly need to make our gif!!!!

Can't wait for EOYs to be over so that Shee and I can put our Top Secret Plan To Be Famous into action! Okay it's not really top secret but I shall tell you guys what it is once we actually do it. SO EXCITING :D

Oh btw I did a handover post already, for all you peering viewers who actually might care (therefore making you 45th monkeys). It's on my lj and I didnt lock it so if you can find it, yay! If you can't find it then you're not good enough a stalker!

(COUGHYENSIANGIKNOWYOUSEETHISCOUGH)

My post was very rambly and long-winded and at times not very coherent (It was 130am in the morning) but I just had to put it all down because I'm so afraid I'll forget my memories of 45th someday! But I'll never forget the people (:

Lovelovelovelovelove you 45th (: I dont want to leave, but I guess we can't stop it. I'm so happy to be handing over to Batch11 though, because I love them so much and I'm sure they'll do a great job :D Never imagine I'd grow to be so close to my juniors, but thank God for that (:

Going for back checkup tomorrow, so yay for missing school!!! I'll be back in time for the Special Event though :D Pray for me that my back hasn't gotten worse!! I'm slightly nervous... but trusting God (:

Whoosh (omgsh I'm laughing thinking about CG now hahaha) it's late, I'm sleepy... TOO MUCH WONGFU FOR ONE NIGHT. Goodbye! (:

2010-08-02T00:14:00.000+08:00

OMGSH SO CUTE :D

Why I love having Wongfu, David Choi and Justin Bieber as part of my SS PT (: (: (: (: (:

2010-08-01T19:43:00.002+08:00

Okay I'm back and I havent been super productive for various reasons:

1) Joel asking me why I'm emo on msn and then us proceeding to have a serious conversation

2) Watching an episode of Jonas LA (sigh) but Nick J is reeeeeally cute heheheh *swoon*

3) Discovering communitychannel on Youtube - She's suuuper funny and has a v nice accent!!! But vulgar ):

4) Just a general lack of any sort of focus

Ah well at least bessssst youtube fangirl Shiren offered to help me print SS PT so YAY LUV U :D And I sorta planned out my entire thing alr so I just have half of it left to write! And I'm on the Wongfu part, so shldnt be too bad (:

So many loose ends to tie up for handover stuff!!!!!

I dont't wanna handover... I'm not ready to have 45th disappear from my life yet ): It's coming to fast!!!!!!!

2010-08-01T15:15:00.003+08:00

I wanna watch Jonas L.A!!!!!!!!!!! Nick and Macy look so cute hehehehehehehe maybe I'll watch it later when I'm doing handover stuff :D

SS PT FULL STEAM AHEAD! I just realised that I dont have a colour printer and that my project is due tmr so Papa can't help me print. Shucks I hope Marcus has otherwise tmr I have to go and fight with everyone else at the library D:

For those who saw the last post (which I decided to save as a draft - effectively it's private) and got it, thanks for the comfort (: Esp good friend Aiden haha!

Okie byezzzz I intend to be extremely productive! Dajie's tweet to me abt ADD being transformed into multitasking when you grow up and it being an important lifeskill made me feel comforted (:

2010-07-31T00:47:00.003+08:00

SS PT.

I have the best and most suitable-for-me topic ever. But I'm just having trouble trying to FOCUS. I mean... I'm doing an article on Youtube and talented people (coughASIANScough) so how can I stay off youtube while doing it? And then, how can I not get distracted???

Anw. Kina Grannis and David Choi are my people of the moment ever since Funemployed ended. Kina is so pretty and has such a nice voice!!! And David Choi is just retarded and cute (:

Here's a nice song by David and Kina! It's such a cute happy song for the summer (if we had one). I think it's rly funny how she blurred the outtakes because this was in 2008 when David would not be seen smiling in any of his videos until he reached 77,777 subscribers!!

And their music video to it (: It's so cute, like them!! I love how alot of the comments are about how they'd make a good couple, hahahahaha!

Ahhhh wowowo it's 1.03 am I must get down to work!!!!! BYE (:

2010-07-28T23:20:00.004+08:00

I am supposed to be doing my SS PT now. Good part is that I have a pretty clear idea of what I want to do, I just have to get down to writing my article.

But instead I've been watching David Choi smile, rewatching the Funemployed bloopers (I'M SO SAD IT'S ENDED!!!), watching Nigahiga and his girlfriend, reading a Random Blog, looking at pics on FB and talking to Yun Shi on msn.

You are so weird. Hahaha.

Spent today talking alot to Shiren about our Youtube fancies, teeheehee I really luv u for being my fellow American-Asian-Youtubers fangirl! I love imitating David Choi crying in Funemployed and Shee loves imitating sneezing guy from Picture Day! This is why we're good friends :D

It makes me happy that I know someone who appreciates all this amazing talent! Talented people like Gabe Bondoc and Davidchoi and Wongfu (hehehehehehe) have crazy fans in Singapore like Shee and I (:

Wongfu + Kevjumba + Davidchoi + Nigahiga = EPIC WIN RLY :D

OMGSH I LAUGHED SO HARD AT THE VID OF DAVID CHOI SMILING FOR THE FIRST TIME ON YOUTUBE.

And I also think Nigahiga's girlfriend is rly pretty!!! I cant believe he has a girlfriend btw hahahahahahahahahaha I was so shocked when I found out today. CAN YOU IMAGINE?!

Ohgosh I've become such a Youtube Junkie over the past few years THIS IS BAD.

I really wanna meet Wongfu in real life! I'M SO EXCITED TO SEE DAVID CHOI IN PERSON ON 21ST AUGUST WOOHOOOOOO.

Okay I must stop fangirling and start my article now.

Last official Shirim session today, but there'll be many unofficial ones to come. I rmb JoelleT's descript on her fb page and I think it's really apt: I love 45th and esp Shirim with the full capacity of my heart. For all its craziness and unglamness and for all you little monkeys. Cant imagine how dreary my weeks would be without y'all!

Yihhui and Smellyphant stole my affection (I have no idea how to phrase this?!) and made me shriek so loud I'm sure the guides practicing their item nearby were not very happy. WHY DO Y'ALL LIKE TO TRAUMATISE ME!!!! Stoops blue smellyphant hahahahaha kena suaned by random Sec1s that we dont even know (:

Thankyouuuu Rachel for today, you were such a great help considering you're not even in my class I WILL REPAY YOU SOMEWAY.... Might be sooner than you think! (:

K IMMA GO START NAO SO I CAN CONTINUE TMR BYE~

2010-07-25T23:07:00.004+08:00

You've got a smile that could light up this whole town

Hearing this line after so long made me smile because I thought of that one particular time (that you've probably forgotten) and got reminded of you.. Haha.

Anw weekend has been interesting & fun!

1. Ariel's party! We got a morning phone call from Ariel at 830am asking us what time we were gonna be there. Hahaha. And had a very miserable Lucas who was soiled and hungry because his mum was too busy with the party. Food was gooooood and we thoroughly enjoyed the magician's act which was meant for the 5 yr olds :D

2. WAS LATE FOR YOUTH. Felly and Ju cant stop laughing for nuts. Hahah crazy monkeys!

3. Dance concert was pretty good!!!! I got scammed though, cos I expected more hiphop/kpop and all that. But it was still nice, esp the Sec4 batch item! GOOD JOB DANCERS AND JAIMEEEEEE :D Rachel and I sneaked backstage to find Jaime and ttly set a trend haha.

4. Leaders cell was small but still good :D Imba Jie was later than me ORHHORRR. And Ninjawarrior is now my accountability partner (:

5. Sent Jeanjiejie off at the airport... I ate the new spicy nuggets! And saw Little Miss Piggy HAHA Jeanjiejie I miss you and your stupid impressions of Phil already ): ): ): ):

6. I gave up my Sunday routine naps to read Sweet Sixteen, the chicklit I borrowed from Shee! IT WAS SO NICE I COULDNT PUT IT DOWN. Now I'm quite sleepy. And it's time to borrow the next book wheee (:

7. I cut my hair today! Its shorter and chunkier (: It looked really nice aft I had just cut it, now the ends are sorta sticking out, I wish Jeanjiejie didnt bring her hair straightener back with her to Perth! ): I still quite like my hair though. It swishes nicely and makes me feel quite... liberated, in a funny way. Hehe (:

8. Anik caught one of the kittens that always runs around the back of our house today, and carried it in! It was so cute :D And I have v cute pics of it in my phone BUT I cant find the cable to connect so I cant post it on twitter and tweet it to Jo Jie and Linx HAHAHA. It was rly quite cute la, for a cat (:

K Imma win the prize for Biggest Slacker of the Century so I shall go off now to either do my math assignment or fall asleep. Yay for the 2 hrs of lesson on Tuesday! :D

Have a good week everybuddy~

2010-07-22T23:33:00.003+08:00

To Debozzzzzz: I saw this on facebook and immediately thought of you!

And then while I was uploading this photo here, I found this photo:

I miss having you in class!!! Hope you're having fun spending time with Kris Allen fangirl/boy, british accents and Sabby's lookalike (: (: (:

Teehee today I got to see Lucas my baby nephew omgsh he's soooo cute hahaha I love squishy nice-smelling babies even though I always make them cry.

Ah munna eat choo!

Chubby Bunny :D

HE'S SO SQUISHY I'M GONNA DIEEEEEEE~

Which reminds me, I REALLY WANNA WATCH DESPICABLE MEEEE AHHHHHH I MUST!!!! Hopefully tomorrow, or sometime soon before it's gone!!!!

Had a nice Italian dinner to celebrate Erjie's belated birthday, I liked the food and our very nice waiter called Kiko! Like the neopet hahaha.

Okay I'm off to finish reading my English article, or fall asleep. I hope it happens in that particular order.

WOOHOO TGIF TMR :D And Saturday = Ariel's birthday party, YOUTH, Jaimeee @ Dance concert!!! YAY (:

2010-07-21T22:54:00.004+08:00

I'm giving myself the next 6 minutes till it's 11pm and I will go and do that very overdue jianbao that I've been avoiding for the past 3 days. Quite hard, considering these weeks have really been epicly fun (:

1. PnD

Was tiring ushering a gazillion people esp with a lack of chairs and I forgot to salute Miss Yip at first but I think I saved it quite okayly and now Mrs Hoo knows my name! (Although Mrs Lee called me Elyssa twice.)

2. Loudfest

WII FTW! Tamer than I expected, but still fun nonetheless (: Esp since smellyfelly and tingthepro came! And of course because Jo Jie is baaaaaaack, and the Ninja Warrior just makes everything epic :D

3. Exco meetings

Feels like we've had a gazillion of them but I still look forward and love every single one becase of all the spasticness and stupidity (PAUL) and of course because I love 45th Exco10 so much (: Oh and of course that very nice Friday where we went out and celebrated Shicky's birthday and Pizza Hut! Hahaha nostalgia muchhh. I am proud of the progress that we have made!

4. IPC Dinner

Was so epic meeting all those important people and I was ttly nervous for nothing because they were all really nice! People from all over the world coming together and having super good peranakan food woohoo (: Met the cutest old people ever, and it made me so happy (: I really hope it's not the end! We'll see each other again (:

5. RHD

Rachel Wanting Elyssa Me = EPIC KILT BUDDIES

Like Rachel said, it made me super proud to be part of 45th/Shirim and even though I was initially scared of how people would gimme weird looks, I learnt to take pride in what I was wearing because I know I take alot of pride in Shirim :D :D :D

Plus, Mr Evans was in a kilt so that was really epic :D PHOTO OPS HAHA.

I love you guys so much! 45th, Exco10, PBB2010, Shirim (: (: (:

You guys have made my past few weeks so hectic, but I've loved every minute of it. And I am a really happy girl now (:

It's 11.03 so BYEEEEEE.

Btw welldone today Juju DONT WORRY you're doing good! I'm proud of you :D

2010-07-15T22:01:00.002+08:00

About 10 seconds ago I was just publishing my previous post. About 5 seconds ago I decided that my dream ambition is to be a Youtube Star.

Dangggggg too bad I'm not talented in any way ):

Being a Youtube Star like AJ Rafael, Cathy Nguyen, Nigahiga or Gabe Bondoc would be soooooooooo cool.

Asians ftw forever :D

2010-07-15T21:48:00.002+08:00

GABE BONDOC = FILIPINO JASON MRAZ YOUTUBE STAR :D

I heard him a couple of times before but today (of all days) I clicked to listen on some of his originals, and they are so good!!!!!!!!! His voice + his guitar skillz woohoo (:

Okay I will talk about him more some other time. I MUST STUDY NAO. I studied today, but I srsly did not use my time very wisely ohwell it's too late for regrets now gotta make the best of the time I have left! (Which is like an hour?)

AHHHH I cant wait for 11am tomorrow because then I can solely look forward to the epic weekend! Exciting time with Exco10, Murder in the Knife Room, PnD, Loudfest etc etc! :D

Today Yensiang the Stalker ran for her life when she saw me IT WAS SO FUNNY! Yensiang if you read this I TTLY KNOW YOU STALK ME OKAY hahahahaha but it's okay (: Because I'm nice in my own way!

Hahahaha I lovelovelove the notes and presents from Shirim farewell but most of all I love Shirim (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: Y'all are such bad distractions to have during exam period!

Yst all I could do was laugh about Racheld__ and P______ Productions hahahahah okay I shall go and do real work for awhile now.

AHHHHH God I'm relying on Your strength to help me tomorrow! Feeling so helpless, dont wanna fail Chem again!

2010-07-14T00:09:00.007+08:00

This is just too cute:

"I dont really wanna stop playing my pipe. even if i cant go for shirim anymore, i can just take out my pipe one day and play by myself :)"

And I couldnt agree more, even though sometimes I get embarrassed because I'm nowhere near as pro as a pipe major should be or as pro as Deborah Roshni Rajaratnam.

But yes. I talked to Mummy just now about buying my own pipe. Except I dont know if it's worth it because I have nowhere to play it without getting complaints from my estate. Jeanjiejie suggested borrowing a Shirim pipe and paying rent for it, like $20 a month haha.

I'm looking forward to Shirim Farewell tomorrow (though I am abit scared because of smelly and ju), and yet I'm not. Because even though it's not officially our last session, that time is creeping up on us wayyy too soon.

But YAY this will be the 7th day of our Shirim Spam, even though we took a break today! Hahahaha cant wait to see you guyz and be real spastic :D

Shirim, along with a scarce few other things, is what makes it worth going to school for (:

And Rachel Lim Yun Shi, if you malfunction tomorrow, I confirm plus chop will too!!! ):

2010-07-12T00:21:00.003+08:00

YO WASSUP MARCUS :D

I like to rub your tummy!

Yay.

You jealous, all you people out there? Or my 1 loyal blogfan - Jeanette Nichole Lim?

Marcus has the best tummy eva. I mean, I love your abs. 4eva. Really. They're.... hard. :D

Thanks for introducing me to Wongfu. YOU ARE THE BEST COUSIN SRSLY NO JOKE WHEEEEE I LOVE WONGFU I LOVE WES TED AND PHIL HEHEHEHE :D

Marcus Lester and Jeanjiejie are making fondant bunnies downstairs. Hahaha.

2010-07-10T00:42:00.006+08:00

I think I may regret this because it'll probably be 1am by the time I finish. But then I've finished preparing for CG + QT so I guess it's not too bad.

I need to post because today was an EPIC BEYOND EPIC DAY :D

Hehehehehehehe firstly I'M SO PROUD OF YOU GUYS SHIRIMZZZZ :D Ahhh hahaha now the entire school knows of our existence and how much we rock! Really, good job guys!

On to the second point, THE PERTH GIRLS FROM PLC WERE SO MINDBLOWING I LOVED IT :D :D :D I'm super inspired! Gonna bug Mdm Kour to teach us how to highland dance and then learn how to sing the songs!!!! HAHA THEY WERE SO EPICLY CUTE WHEN THEY DID IT (: Plus they did the cancan while piping/drumming/majoring = WOOHOO!

Hahahaha. I was so nervous before the performance but thank God for really bringing us through! Today was the first time where I really REALLY played by the strength of God. I dont really know how to explain it but.... Yeah it was a great feeling :D

After our combined performance (where we flailed and faked at Murdo's Wedding haha), we got to hang out and talk to them! They were all super nice, esp the pipe major! (:

GOOD JOB SEC3S for planning the games and executing them and LOVE YOU JUJU for making all those flowers! Really so proud of y'all :D Blow Wind Blow + Macarena + Musical chairs + THE WORM was funnnn.

ELYSSA WONKATING AND ESTHERMARIERESMECHERIYAN you guys totally rock for staying throughout :D OFFICIAL SHIRIM FANGIRLS! Hahaha.

We had a really nice time getting to talk to them and getting their fb/twitter and all that jazz (: Plus Rachel and I got a picture with their very pretty pipe and drum major! Who also happen to be SUPER TALL. I've never felt so short before!!

Later alot of *~interesting things~* happened once Northland and SJI came hahahahaha anw we had performances, where our minds continued to be blown by all of them super pros. And then mass band, where we didnt know how to play half of the songs they were playing hahaha.

Lalala it was a very happy day with many stupid and epicly hilarious details not to be revealed here but my point is I LOVE SHIRIM and PLC TTLY ROCKS and today is just really GREAT :D (Oh actually it's yesterday cos it's almost 1am of Saturday!)

HEHEHE jumping with glee around the house and having a 2hr phone convo with Yihhui abt all sorts of stupid hilarious stuff really made my night :D

I am a happy girl! But I am also suuuuuuuuper exhausted so GOODNIGHT WORLD :D

//edit

HOW COULD I FORGET! Rachel and I got very cool PLC Pipeband waterbottles and we're gonna use them until they break and die!!!! ITS SO COOL :D

2010-07-08T22:39:00.004+08:00

Hehehehe I couldnt help it heee :D

Today was a good day :D Too lazy to go into details haha.

PERTH GIRLS TOMORROW!

Me = Nervous but excited!!!!!

And tonight is a good night because of the following 3 reasons:

Heeeeeeeeeeeee music from my childhood :D I just spent the last hour singing my lungs out and dancing in front of the youtube window! Hahahahaha thankfully no one but Jeanjiejie is here (:

This is the music from when I was 6 years old dancing in front of Jiamin's TV to all of their pop hits of the 90s, when I had a big crush on Nick Carter (even though he had a centre parting HAHA) and when I was always Baby Spice when we would all pretend to be the Spice Girls (:

You have no idea how happy it made me to just sing at the top of my lungs to songs that I havent listened to in YEARS and to realise that I still remember most of the words!

This was a bigbig part of my childhood. And like I was telling Debo, it is a major factor that contributes to my music taste today (: Hahahaha teeny bopper pop ever since I was 6 okay!

Hahaha.

Fun fact of the night: "I want it that way" by The Backstreet Boys was the first ever pop song that I learnt the lyrics to. Erjie taught it to me on a whiteboard.

I will never ever forget that song :D

Okay goodnight!

2010-07-06T22:22:00.003+08:00

AHHHH!

TED + WES + PHIL + SPENCER = :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

Publicity for their old short called Give and Take, go search it on youtube! IT'S SRSLY TOO CUTE.

"Paper is paper right?"

"Except that one's for your face, and the other's for your butt!"

HAHA this is all Jeanjiejie and I ever say these days.

2010-07-06T21:24:00.001+08:00

I'm going mad cos I just declared that I want to marry Wes.

HAHAHAHA.

BUT.

Yes okay it's mad.

I NEED TO STUDY.

I HAVENT DONE CHINESE.

WHAT TO DO???????????????

Okay bye.

I want to marry Wes.

2010-07-05T23:30:00.003+08:00

I AM BEING A WONGFU FANGIRL.

I'm sad cos Wes is 10 years older than meeeeeeeee ):

But I'm happy cos he does not have a girlfriend, or a wife like Kris Allen.

HEE :D

And obviously, I am crazy. And sorta joking, but not really. If you get what I mean. Hahaha.

Disney Channel messed me up sooo badly this morning by showing 2 hrs of Phineas and Ferb followed by 2 hours of Wizards of Waverly Place NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I just died.

Plus they were tearing apart the cupboards downstairs, so it was not condusive for studying at all.

Plus side, I finished Bio!

Down side, I'm doing SS PT proposal now and I havent studied Chinese.

Jeanjiejie asked me why I would want Wes as a boyfriend cos he's so geeky on the inside, even though he looks like Ash from Pokemon on the outside :D Hahaha he actually took apart his nerf gun, removed the air constrictor to make it more powerful and then spray painted it black.

And he's 26.

Hahahaha. But I think its super cute! Typical Asian Geek :D

Jeanjiejie said she'd go find me a geeky boyfriend, and I said: "If he looks like Wes then, okay!"

Hahahaha.

Okay must finish PT proposal now then off to sleeeeep! Dont wanna go back to school again sigh ): LOOKING FORWARD TO FRIDAY~

2010-07-04T22:15:00.004+08:00

So cute!! Biggie Spencer (squashed), awkward rhino and awkward turtle all in 1 photo :D

And also NEW WONGFU WEEKENDS YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY now I'm so excited for next weekend hahahahahaha okay sorry I know there are many other wayyy more important things on weekends like youth and church and CG but wongfu just adds to the pure joy that is the weekends!

Whoa okay sorry for the long run-on sentence where I said the word "weekend" 4 times. I got excited. I shall try to punctuate better.

Yst there was the RAFFLES RINGERS concert which I was ttly late for (I HATE TRAFFIC JAMS) but it was really really really good! I was very extremely impressed, no joke (: I love watching the expressions on the ringers' face when they're playing, its v cute! And the songs were very nice too (:

GREAT JOB DEBO YOUR MAKEUP IS PRETTY LAAAA. Hahaha took afew photos and then rushed out to catch a cab! This took FOREVER. And then, we got caught in another jam. SO ANNOYING! But the taxi driver was really funny cos he kept complaining abt it in a mixture of english chinese and hokkien haha (y)

Anw I WAS ON TIME FOR YOUTH! Yay. Worship was really really really great, Jared + Wenxin + Aunty Janet were srsly TOO CUTE, and message was really good!!!!! It was a really great service (: Thank God!

Had youth day dinner aft that, which was basically just pigging out on food made by parents yayyy (: And sticking ourselves (Jaslyn + Joanne + Tiara + Me) into the guys' conversations and laughing hysterically even though we didnt know what they were talking about. Hahahahaha.

Also, Tiara the Ninja Warrior. Enough said.

Managed to convince Mum to let me go to Jo Jie's house to play Wii with some of the cool people (Tiara Jas Kath Weiren Bradleyyam Matthieujew Tianyiduane) and it was EPIC :D Hahahaha took a lot of photos and laughed at noobs playing raving rabbits! And then I proceeded to own Bradley at Wii Boxing WOOHOO (:

Hahaha we should totally do that again! And Joanne GIRLS NIGHT IN DURING DEC HOLIDAYS! You me Bangz and NinjaWarrior, SET!

Okay let me show you 2 videos that have really thoroughly made my night. They're unrelated but one made me laugh really hard, and one blew my mind:

WONGFU! Omgsh it's super funny and retarded I LOVE IT :D WATCH!!!

And ohno the 2nd mindblowing video cant be embedded, maybe because its too much EPICNESS in one video to be spread around the world.

So go to this link!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Un_-EtIa6i8&feature=popular

Super HQ but has long intro

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qegqQm8KHFg&feature=related
Not as HQ but just the dance alone!

ALEX AND TWITCH HIPHOP

Ohmygosh my mind was srsly blown!!!!! The asian dude Alex is a clasically trained ballet dancer and he became a hiphop pro in 1 week! SRSLY HE WAS SO IMBA. Tiara thinks he's even better than Twitch, who is the AllStar and hiphop pro.

GO CLICK ON THE LINK SRSLY! I watched the routine 5 times hahaha.

Thankyou Hannah for sharing with me this imbaness.

Okay off to print bio notes and then go to sleeeeeeep! Yay for a day off tomorrow (:

2010-06-30T21:27:00.006+08:00

Yay yay yay so happy 3 exams are over and did not go as terribly horrible as I expected! Thank You God :D The prayer I prayed last night before sleeping was somewhere along the lines of "Dear God, please help me with the exams tomorrow. Even though I know I brought this upon myself.. It'll be nice if You help me. But if You dont, I'll totally understand."

Hahahaha.

Cant really comment on interviews today since they'll still be on on Friday, but SORRY JOELLE for overrunning!

Didnt eat anything all the way from 10 to 630 because right aft interviews was Shirim! Ahhhh cant believe we only have 5 shirim sessions left till ITS ALL GONE D:

But I lovelove shirim even if we got stuck in the middle of a Heng Story for like 15min because I accidentally said some stuff about _____. Hahaha it was quite amusing though (: And it felt good to pipe!!! Even though I completely messed up once and got bashed by Mr Wallace.

AHHHH I'LL MISS MR WALLACE AND MDM KOUR SO MUCH WHEN WE LEAVE ): Mr Wallace esp, he's so inspiring and he makes me want to pipe my best till I flop down and die (Like that 74 yr old drummer from #1 pipe band!!) so that I can become a better piper/pipe major :D

Hopefully the Master Plan rly works and we will nv have to leave Shirim! WE WILL BE THE QUEENS :D :D :D

Which reminds me, Perth Girls + The Kings coming to RGS next Friday! WOOHOO :D :D :D Okay Northland and SJI too but whatever. I was happily grinning while I found out and the Sec3s laughed at me. DONT THINK I DIDNT SEE IT.

Okay abit high thinking about Shirim now but still rly exhausted from all the math for the past few days, 3 exams today + interviews + shirim and so I will finish my chem asap and flop down on my bed to sleep.

Newest Kriscon in my collection!

Hehehehe DEBOOOOOO :D Go see the 8 part Krimterview! (:

K byeeeeeee~

2010-06-29T20:11:00.004+08:00

From Tiara's tumblr, which I lovvvvvve to read because it's always epicly retarded :D (I know you are seeing this! Haha)

I felt special, until I saw that you talk to everyone like that. Yeah thanks.

Not to anyone in particular at this point in time, but I think this all the time. Srsly.

Haha okay enough is enough

I MUST STUDY NOW I MUST HAVE SELF CONTROL IN CASE MY AMBITION TO BECOME A HOUSEWIFE/HOMEMAKER/TAITAI FAILS THEN I WILL HAVE TO DEPEND ON MY VERY MEDIOCRE GRADES.

So there. I dont even know what subject combi I wanna do in JC yet!!!

2010-06-27T16:59:00.002+08:00

First off, oh em gee I cant believe school is starting tomorrow this June hols flew by (as usual)! What with Shirim intensive + competition + sleepover, Glee, Wongfu everything, PBB, Simin's wedding, 45th June Camp etc etc etc wowzaaaaa no time!

Okay anw I dont have much time to say alot of things I want to say because 3 EXAMS ON WEDNESDAY COMMENCE PANIC NOW but let me just briefly say,

Well Done Batch 11! (: (: (:

I really enjoyed myself at my last official GB camp (ohgosh). Quite sad to think it's our last actually.... But despite the fact that we'd taken a step back to let Batch 11 lead, I learnt alot of things through this camp.

And I'm so glad we managed to share so many lessons that we learnt at PBB with them! (:

Exco meeting right after camp broke was pure madness. EXCO SEDIA! Hahahahahah doing stupid things like reporting for inspection, waiting 2 hrs for the macs delivery and just laughing at everything was so fun (: I love you 45th Batch 10 Exco!!!!!

Career Keys workshop was only fun because I was sitting in between Rachel and Joelle and we basically just entertained each other (:

My DISC profile is IS! Which I realised it completely opposite from Rachel, who is CD. Maybe thats why we work well together though we fight often? Hahahahaha. And Joelle is SC (: I wonder what Tze is!

Anw it was fun we started trying to profile everyone and Rachel can go and work in BAU alr! Hahaha.

Okay really gtg now omgsh DONCH WANNA GO TO SCHOOOOOOL~

(except for interviews hehehehe)

2010-06-21T23:15:00.006+08:00

PBB was really like, WHOA.

I dont know how to describe it........ It was like, the most regimental camp ever, the camp where we got scolded the most, did the most punishments, rushed the most from place to place.

And yet I think it was one of the most impactful and meaningful camps. Like the lessons that I took away from it will (hopefully) really be able to be applied in my life. This camp made me realise that actually, none of us are perfect.

Honestly I thought I was a pretty good leader before I went for this camp. I thought the camp shouldnt be too big of a problem. But all the experiences made me realise that I can be so much better, and that there are really so many things that I've yet to learn and so many people whom I can learn from.

And what I've been sharing with everyone abt this camp is the paradox of realising that it's okay to not get the award only after I went through the camp.

Before PBB, all I was focused on was getting the award, getting the award, getting the award. But it's only after all the lessons that I learnt, and especially the devotion+session that I truly realised that the process is more important than the end result. The camp was really worth going, even without the prize of the award.

It was such a good experience, and one major thing I learnt was humility. To get rid of our pride, because that is the only way we can improve ourselves. And also the importance of looking out for one another; not just ourselves, not just a teammate, but anyone who is in need.

Group JOY! was probably the group that got the most scoldings and punishments, but I'm glad for it anyway. And really thank God for the friends that I made in this camp! Elyssa Vivien Felicia Joy Rachel Lihlin Laylin Wenhui Szemin (:

I mean we werent perfect, we lost many games, we had trouble working together sometimes, but going through the punishments and everything together really bonded us (: And I esp love all the retarded conversations that we had in the toilet, stupid times in the dorms (with the smelly PBB tee). Fave word: Very shagged! Hahaha I had really cute teammates (:

The camp was so trying, so tiring but yet such an eye opener. First time I ever hiked in almost pitch-darkness, and pitched a basha! And the good thing was that this camp really taught me to rely on God. Whenever something went wrong or there were silent moments (Many, esp when trying to sleep in the freezing dorms at night), I'd talk to God. He really sustained me (:

Still trying to get used to not answering every question with a "Ma'am!" at the end of it, and not going for inspection aft every meal. Haha.

SPECIAL NIGHT planned by Group Joy! was FUN :D Thank God for answering our prayer! We all had a blast laughing at people doing stupid actions for charades, esp the officers!!! Hahahaha.

Sharing on the last day made me cry like 5 times!!!! Seeing people cry made Joy Vivien Elyssa and I start tearing up. We even had to have a contest to see who could hold back their tears. And Rachel proved that she is indeed entirely human and not one part robot, contrary to popular belief! I cried and laughed even harder when she said (while crying), "And all you people from 45th stop crying!!!!!"

PBB made me see how much better we can make 45th, with what little time we have left. And made me love my batchmates alot (:

To Elyssa Joelle Laura Shiqi and Rachel: WE DID IT! We made it through PBB :D And although I hope some of us will get the award, I'm just so glad that we got to go through this experience together (: It doesnt matter who gets it! As long as we rmb the stuff we learnt, and make 45th rock even more than it does now :D

Missing PBB and Joymates already~ I'm so thankful to the people who convinced me to go for PBB instead of church camp. Thank You God, now I know that Your plan is really always perfect, even when things are beyond my understanding.

I'm sorry this post sounds abit disjointed. I'm still recovering from the exhaustion of PBB carried over. Haha. CG OUTING TMR! (: Nightttt.

//Edited one day late but LOOK! I found the perfect photo :D

Hehehehehehehehe :D

2010-06-16T00:30:00.002+08:00

JOELICIA

I think it speaks for itself?

See, I'm effective and efficient! (:

2010-06-15T23:19:00.002+08:00

Crying it out made me feel alot better. Thank you Hannah, Shihui and esp Mone (: You guys rock. And thank you Rachel Lim Yun Shi for trying. Hahaha.

Thank You God, for Your peace that transcends all understanding. I really hope PBB'll be an unforgettable experience!

And all you lucky lucky people who get to go for church camp, enjoy it to the max!!!!! Pastor Edmund Chan is really (y) Good serious solid stuff. Wish I could be there with you guys.....

But alas, I think I'm doing what I should be doing. There will be other church camps...

Okay.

I've been alternating between panicking about being unproductive and not studying, calming myself down and telling myself it's too late to regret now and all I can do is move on, and convincing myself that there's more to life than studying because my ambition is to be a housewife!

Hahahaha took me and Papa like 2 hours to finish 2 math questions today. NOT GOOD. Going to get help from Rachel tomorrow, but...... Sigh seeing how long it takes me to do Math, I dont think we'll get much done tomorrow ):

Hope we can pwnz 60th tmr at Shirim haha!

And I hope I dont start bawling again once that boat leaves for Batam at 1030am.

I. Am. Making. The. Right. Decision. WE'RE GONNA ROCK PBB. RIGHT? Right.